Chasing Stars (Tendou Satori X reader)

3. The Aftermath

After practice Tendou walks me home. Normally it would've been Luke, but that's over now. Honestly Tendou and Semi are the only two on the team who I grew extremely close with. Yes I am close with the whole team, but those two are definitely my favorites.

"Hey y/n," Tendou's voice breaks the peace. I don't mind it though. My thoughts are constant and I just need sounds to break through them.
"Yes?"
I glance over to him. I notice the way his eyes show empathy for me, it's different from the sympathy and pity from others. He looks like what happened hurt him too
"This might seem weird, but I- heh, I was wondering, since you mentioned you didn't think it would be good for you to be alone. I umm was wondering if you wanted me to hang out at your house with you for a little bit tonight," I see him look over towards me, "You know, so you don't have to be alone."
I notice his smile, seemingly so genuine. It makes me happy.
I smile back at him, this time it doesn't feel as forced.

"It's your choice Tendou, I don't mind. Plus my parents are of of the country this week so they won't mind either,"

I see him nod and we keep walking. The peace of silence fills the air. The wind seemingly seems to quiet itself, same with the birds and cars. Though I know it's all an illusion on my ears, silence is what scares me the most right. The thoughts start to flood back in.
I remember all the whispers and side glances from the other students.
The pitied smiles and disgusted glares.
The constant feeling of being alone.

It all just comes rushing back.

----Time Skip----

At my house me and Tendou are hanging out in my room. Neither of has said a thing since we got here. I kind of wish I had just say no to him, at least I would be able to cry if I was alone.
"Y/n, why do you keep pretending you're okay?" The silence breaks. Only for a second though, because I have no clue on how to answer that question.
"What do you mean?" After what feels like decades, which was only really a few seconds, I answer back.
"The fake smiles, the fake cheerfulness and hope," I thought I was good at faking it all though, at least I hoped I was, "I don't know about the others but I could tell, and even Semi knew something was off."

I feel the tears start to form in my eyes, and I can't stop them as they start to fall onto my lap. Quickly I start wiping them away.
"I-," I'm about to apologize but stop myself.
"You?" I hear Tendou say. I can barely even hear over the pain staking thoughts in my mind.

"I'm so sorry Tendou," I just break down. Letting the walls as the tears fall too. I start wiping my face, trying to stop myself from crying but it just doesn't work.

"Y/n.." I hear him move, "Please don't apologize. It's not your fault, you have to stop blaming yourself." I know he's right, but I can't. I know I could've also done something different, something better then he wouldn't have cheated. I wouldn't be crying on the floor.
I bring my hands to my face, covering the tears and visible pain.
Then I feel something touch me. I get brought into a hug, by who I assume is Tendou.
"Please don't apologize anymore, but also don't lie anymore either. You need to be honest and work your way to moving on. That'll take time though, it's not something a quick fake smile and a witty joke will fix," He holds me as tight as he he possibly can.
I don't want him to let go. I feel safe with Tendou, I always have.
"I- I won't," I say pulling my hands away from my face. I put them around Tendou, hugging him back.
I don't want to let go. I want to feel this safety, this comfort forever. Though I know it's just a wish.
"Thank you Tendou, for everything," I feel the tears still falling down my cheeks. It's not like I should try and stop them though, somehow Tendou broke down my walls, my barriers. For some reason though, I don't think I mind this.

Despite how safe I feel now, I know that once I go back to school tomorrow my whole world will come crashing right down onto me again.

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Author's Note: It is not sunrise yet (I lied after publishing this chapter I looked outside and the sun is rising haha) but I will be pausing writing these chapters currently. I will probably do the editing either this Sunday or Monday and get a few more chapters published this week. I hope everyone of you enjoyed this chapter, please don't hesitate to make suggestions for how the story should continue I would really appreciate it. Once again thank you to everyone and anyone who reads this chapter and any past/ future chapter I am very grateful for each and everyone of you who reads this. I hope your day/night/morning/evening has been going well so far :)

Word Count: 885 (I'll try to keep it in the thousands for the next few chapters)

Edited? Heavily.