Me and Alexis made an agreement to alternate weeks with the baby. It's easier and it fits my schedule better. I got her the apartment fully furnished and all the day I got her back.
I been with the baby for 3 days now, and when I tell you I love her so much I really do. Today's Wednesday so I gotta bring Paris to her mom on Sunday.
This whole week I have her to myself. Of course Alexis FaceTime's me and to tell the baby goodnight, goodmorning, or just to check up on her, but other than that, we don't speak.
I know y'all probably wondering if she got her phone back, no she didn't. Luckily she had that shit backed up though, because I had bought her the iPhone 11 Pro Max.
Even though she did what she did, I will always make sure she straight.
Do I miss her ? Yes, but I need time. I'm still processing this shit.
Lexi
It was 9am. The usual time I wake up and call Clarence.
I miss my daughter so much. It's crazy that I can say that now. She's my everything and more, but I'm just missing one more piece of me.
This whole situation has honestly drove me into depression. I don't really eat or get much sleep. I just hate myself.
I called Clarence and he picked up on the 3rd ring. Instead of putting his face in the camera he puts baby girl's face in the camera, which I completely don't mind.
"Hey tinkaaa" I smiled rubbing my eyes.
She started smiling with her little gums. My baby so cute😢🥺.
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I swear she so gorgeous 😍.
We talked, well I talked some more until it was time to say our goodbyes. I hate saying goodbye to my babies. Idc my heart is with the both of them. I was manipulated.
He put the camera up to his face
"Later-" that's what he usually says when he's about to hang up but I cut him off.
"I love you" I said hopeful that he would say it back.
"Mm hmm" he said and with that he hung up.
Ouch! That hurt me ultimately.
I know I fucked up but it wasn't my fault. Desmond manipulated me and brainwashed me. Plus I was pregnant, so it was the hormones that wanted him not me.
I just crawled under my covers and cried. This shit is driving me crazy. I just want to talk to him.
He's my baby. I want my family back.
Clarence
I know y'all fuck asses think I'm fucked up for not saying I love you back, but you gotta see it from my point of view.
The situation is fresh. So of course I'm still gone be mad at her. Don't fault me tf. I ain't do shit. I did everything for that girl. I saved her from a domestic violence relationship, I saved her from getting raped, I was there when she miscarried TWICE, I did everything not even materialistic shit. I did shit niggas in a normal relationship wouldn't do. So don't fault me for shit.
I'm out because this shit pissing me off just thinking about it.
