He's NOT a Psycho

Chapter 5

If you are triggered easily, please please be careful with reading this chapter. It contains abuse, cursing, depersonalization and maybe more. So be warned!

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Yangyang didn't know how long he had been in the room. Hours? A day? A week? It felt like an eternity to him, and he wished that this all would be just a nightmare. When would he finally wake up and realize everything was okay? That Kun was with him, watching over him, talking to him. Yangyang whimpered and moved around a bit, the feeling in his hands and arms being completely gone. His stomach grumbled softly, and he bit his lip, trying to forget about his hunger. He felt a few tears roll down his cheeks, but it felt like everything was just happening to him without him having any control over it. It felt as if he was watching over his own body, but couldn't do anything to help himself. Yangyang whined softly, trembling out of fear of what was happening. He felt so helpless, so alone, his body didn't feel like his own and he wouldn't be surprised if he started hearing voices sooner or later. Because the room was so dark, opening his eyes had no effect, and it felt like his senses were screaming for some sort of input. Normally he would hate every sort of sensory input, as it could be too much very quickly, but now he felt deprived of every kind of sense he had. He let out a scream in frustration, his voice already so hoarse that it didn't sound like anything at all. Yangyang just cried silently, hoping somebody would just please end his suffering.

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Kun had gone to the head nurse's office, as he refused to go home. He sat in the chair across the desk, not wanting to think what Yangyang was going through right now. He tried to hold in his tears, hearing the head nurse's footsteps behind him. She was pacing around, thinking about what to say. Kun had broken quite some rules, but she had also heard from a nurse that it wasn't Kun that ripped up the file, but Yangyang. She sighed deeply and walked to her chair, sitting down and looking at Kun. "Why do you care about that boy so much?" "Because he's innocent. I.. I wrote down a list of mental disorders he might be suffering from and.. they're all really easy to deal with if you know how his brain works." Kun glanced at miss Liu, who sighed deeply. "I've been working in this field longer than you exist, don't you think I'm the expert?" "Not if you lock him up for bumping into you." "He tore apart a personal document and he ran away from you." Kun bit his lip and looked down, gulping slightly. "I tore it." "Kun, there are cameras and eyes everywhere. Don't dare to lie to me." The head nurse took a deep breath. "What did he say about it? What was he telling you?" "He kept repeating his name but... that was all." Kun shrugged. "I tried to tell him that there are lots of people with the surname Liu, and that you might not have anything to do with him, but he kept telling me no." The head nurse nodded and looked away. "And what do you think?" "I don't know, but if you have something to tell me..." "Well I don't." The head nurse stood up, walking to the door. "Now, go home. You've been here after your shift and I do not wish to speak to you any longer." "Can I-" "No. You go straight home. I'll take care of that boy for the rest of the night."

Kun sighed deeply as the gates of the institution closed behind him. He hoped to every single god in the whole wide universe that Yangyang would still be alive when he would come back in the morning. He made his way home, not being in the mood for food or sleep at all. He just sat down on the couch, staring at the wall with his mind empty.

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Yangyang flinched as the loud sound of the door opening filled the silent room. He tried to move his head, but his body didn't seem to listen. Soon he felt two arms wrap around his upper body, making him sit up. He opened his eyes, looking right into the head nurse's eyes. "You're so lucky you went mute. If you had told that fucker about us, you'd be dead meat right now." Yangyang gulped, fear filling his whole body. He whimpered softly, but he had no chance of getting out of the woman's grip. The head nurse grabbed in Yangyang's hair, pulling on it softly to make him shut up. "You shut the fuck up, alright? I'm already very much agitated with that idiot trying to figure you out. You belong to this institution and you belong to me. Nobody will know of your existence after I'm done with you and that kid." Yangyang closed his eyes, trying to stay completely still. The head nurse shook him back and forth before pushing him back on the ground. "I hate you. You're a fucked up human. I wished for a perfect baby girl, but the devil got me you." Yangyang felt a tear roll down his cheek. He never wished for this either. He was born and as soon as he could walk and talk, he knew nothing but being yelled at. Everything he did seemed to be wrong, and he never knew why. He began trembling out of fear, but luckily he heard the footsteps walk to the door, and the loud noise of it closing and locking told him he was alone again.

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A week passed by, and Kun was not allowed to go back into the restricted section. The head nurse had changed all the passwords without telling Kun, so he was unable to sneak away and go to Yangyang while nobody was looking. He was frustrated, as it wasn't fair at all. But Kun was powerless. If he didn't want to risk losing his internship, he needed to follow the rules and do what the head nurse told him too. He tried to talk with the other nurses, hoping they would give him some information every day. Luckily, he knew Yangyang was still alive, but he couldn't get much more out of the other nurses. He was lost in thought as he took care of a patient, doing everything on autopilot, when he suddenly heard the head nurse speak to one of the older male patients. "Yes, he is alive.... No.. no you cannot see him. Father, no. He is beyond our reach. We tried everything. We did the ECT but he came out even more of a monster than before." Kun stopped and ushered his patient to go back to the ward, wanting to hear more of the conversation. "That boy who tried to treat him gave up. Yeah.. it's hopeless, I know. I still pray to god that he will recover one day." Kun furrowed his eyebrows. ECT? Father? Was the head nurse's dad in this institution as well? Kun gasped as he heard footsteps, quickly walking off towards somewhere. He hoped the head nurse wouldn't see him, and he stayed quiet. His mind was racing though, with all sorts of thoughts. He had to do something. He had to find Yangyang, he had to talk to that older patient. He needed to know. Kun pulled aside a nurse that walked past, taking a deep breath. "Can I please see Yangyang?" The nurse tilted her head, looking at Kun. "The demon kid? No. The head nurse gave strict instructions-" Kun shushed her and put a hand in his pocket. He took out a rolled up bundle of money, showing it to her. "Take me to him. Please." The nurse looked around, gulping slightly. She took the money and nodded, signaling Kun to follow her. Kun tried to stay calm as they walked towards the restricted section, greeting every nurse they passed, acting like they were just doing their work. The nurse opened the door, letting Kun in, and quickly closed it behind them. She lead Kun to one of the padded rooms, turning around to face him. "Don't tell anybody I did this." "Duh, I gave you money. I rather don't want you going and blabbing about this." The nurse nodded and stepped back. "Good luck.

Kun entered the room, seeing Yangyang's familiar figure sitting on the bed. Yangyang was rocking back and forward, completly silent and not having noticed Kun coming in. Kun balled his fists and took a deep breath to stay calm. He hated the head nurse so much, how could she do this to him? If Yangyang really was her own son, how did she have the will to treat him this way? Kun walked to Yangyang, carefully placing a hand on his back. Yangyang didn't react at all, still rocking. Kun sat down next to Yangyang, softly pulling him closer. Yangyang stopped moving, still unresponsive to Kun. Kun sighed and then pulled Yangyang against his chest, hugging him close and stroking over his hair. "I'm so sorry. I'm so fucking sorry, Yangyang. She took me away from you. I.. I'm sorry." Kun let out a shaky breath, looking down at the younger boy in his arms. "I don't know what they did to you, but you didn't deserve it. You didn't. You're a human, you're normal." Yangyang still showed no sign of movement or recognition. Kun bit his lip, getting worried about him. "Hey.. Yangyang.. I'm here. I'm holding you." Kun stroked over Yangyang's back. "Can you hear me?" Kun cupped Yangyang's face, making him look at him. Yangyang's eyes were empty and unfocused, his face showed no expression. Kun stroked over Yangyang's cheek. "Yangyang.." Kun gasped as he heard the door open, quickly getting up. He stood in front of Yangyang, ready to protect him. The head nurse stepped inside, looking at Kun. "Eavesdropping on me.. bribing a nurse.. sneaking into the restricted section.." The head nurse shook her head. "I wonder if the demons of this institution finally got to you." Kun gulped and he spread his arms, taking a deep breath. The head nurse chuckled and looked at Kun. "I'm not here for him, silly. I'm here for you. You piss me off too much, and I'm ready to take the next step." Kun furrowed his eyebrows, wondering what the head nurse was talking about. "What do you mean? You.. you can't hurt me. My teacher will come to get me. The rules of the internship.." "You underestimate me, kid. I can get away with a lot of things, and to be completely honest, even the government doesn't dare to argue with this institution." Kun's eyes widened, suddenly feeling very scared. The head nurse smirked and chuckled evilly. "Get him." Before Kun could register what happened, he felt two nurses grabbing his arms, a third wrapping a blindfold around his head. Kun groaned and tried to struggle against their grip, his heart going crazy. "YOU CRAZY BITCH!" Kun heard a fourth nurse come towards him, and his head got pulled to the side. He squealed as they pulled on his hair, and he felt a sudden stinging pain in his neck. He knew they had injected him with something and he felt his body go completely limp. He dropped on the floor, hearing the head nurse's voice before he passed out. "I diagnose you with.. Aggression problems, Schizophrenia and.. oh yeah.. being a nosey bastard."