He's NOT a Psycho

Chapter 12

Ten struggled with getting the door open with Yangyang in his arms. He sighed slightly and glanced at Yangyang, who was still leaning against him. "Yang.. do you think you can stand for a bit? Just for a few seconds while I open the door." Ten put Yangyang down, letting him lean against him. Yangyang stood weakly on his legs, but it was just enough for Ten to open the door. He picked Yangyang up again, carrying him inside. "I'll uhm.. put you down on the couch and get you a blanket.." Ten said softly. He sighed as Yangyang stayed quiet, as he was unsure if he was okay with it. Ten laid Yangyang down on the couch, stroking some hair out of his face. Yangyang just laid there, recovering from his meltdown. He closed his eyes, his body relaxing. Ten smiled slightly, walking off the go grab a blanket. He wasn't really familiar with how to care for Yangyang, but he wanted to try his best. He came back with a blanket from the bedroom, placing it over the younger boy. Ten smiled gently, seeing Yangyang had fallen asleep, probably exhausted from what had happened. Ten tucked the younger in a bit, looking around as he tried to think of what to do. "Food? To give him some energy.." Ten walked to the kitchen, looking through the cabinets and fridge. "But what does he like.. oh- I'm a bad friend." Ten bit his lip, deciding to just make something he always had when he felt down or tired.

Kun came home a while later, having finished the groceries. He put the bags down so he could close the door again, already smelling the scent of whatever food Ten had made. He curiously walked into the livingroom, seeing Yangyang and Ten at the table, busy with colouring. Kun smiled as he saw the two, extremely happy that Yangyang had opened up to Ten. Kun carried the bags to the kitchen, unpacking them. Maybe Ten coming to help with the meltdown and bringing Yangyang to a safe place had given Yangyang some trust in the older male. Kun walked back to the livingroom, smiling brightly. "Hello you guys. How are you doing?" Ten looked up and chuckled. "We're doing great! Yangyang is showing me his colouring skills, and he's pretty good!" Ten held up one of Yangyang's drawings. "Look! This is a master of colours we have here!" Kun nodded and stood behind them, watching over Yangyang's shoulder. He carefully placed a hand on the younger's shoulder, not wanting to scare him. "Can you show me what you're doing Yang?" Yangyang stopped colouring, turning to look at Kun. He then moved his hand from the paper, revealing the dragon he was busy with colouring. "Wow... that looks amazing!" Kun smiled at Yangyang, Yangyang smiling back as he was happy to get the compliment. He then continued colouring, focusing back on the pretty colours that gave him peace. Kun looked at Ten and took a deep breath. "Did he behave?" "Oh yeah he did. He fell asleep as soon as we came here, and when he woke up I gave him something to eat. He hated the carrots, but he just picked the out and ate the rest. And now he's drawing." Ten smiled, giving Kun reassurance that everything went well. Kun sighed relieved and hugged Yangyang from behind. "You're doing a good job, Yang."

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Ten stayed for a while until he went back home to eat dinner. Kun and Yangyang waved goodbye, the door falling shut as Ten left the apartment. Yangyang let out a sigh, closing his eyes for a moment. Kun looked at him and rubbed his back. "You okay?" Yangyang nodded and smiled. "Yeah. I'm okay." Kun nodded. "Are you hungry or tired? What was that sigh all about?" Yangyang shrugged. "It was fun but.. yeah.." Kun bit his lip, not fully understanding it. "But.. now you're tired?" "No no I slept before..." "Then why did you sigh?" "Just.. I needed to. There's no reason." Yangyang looked at Kun, furrowing his eyebrows slightly. "Does there need to be a reason?" Kun shook his head and smiled. "No no, I was curious. Usually sighs have a reason but, I guess yours doesn't." Kun got up and hummed. "What do you want to eat?" Yangyang perked up as he was happy to decide what they would eat. "Pizza!" Kun tilted his head. "Again?" "Yeah!" "We've had pizza twice this week.." Kun bit his lip, Yangyang pouting and looking down. "Then no pizza.." "No no, it's fine. We can eat pizza. Don't pout." Kun sighed and looked at the dinner table. "Why don't you go clean up your colouring stuff and set the table while I make the pizza?" Yangyang nodded and got up as well, walking to the dinner table. Kun watched him for a moment before turning to walk to the kitchen. He knew Yangyang loved pizza, but he wondered if he could get the younger to be a bit more diverse in his food choices. Safe foods were good, but Yangyang couldn't eat pizza every day of the week.

As they were eating, Kun let his mind wander a bit. He was still a bit in shock about the meltdown that Yangyang had in the supermarket, and he had been wondering what had gone wrong. He was still doubting if he could diagnose Yangyang with autism, but everything that he had seen Yangyang do related very closely with the symptoms he had been taught in school. He took a deep breath, looking at Yangyang, who was happily eating a slice of pizza. "Yang?" Yangyang stopped his movement and looked at Kun with a curious face. "Can you try and explain to me what happened in the supermarket? You seemed so excited to go and then.. so suddenly it went wrong.." Yangyang lowered his slice of pizza as he thought about it. "It.. uhm.." Yangyang furrowed his eyebrows, trying to find words for how he had felt. Kun watched him, hoping he could try and explain it. Kun wanted to understand what Yangyang was experiencing. If he could remember how different Yangyang saw the world, he could eventually take care of him better. "Uhm.. well.. can I think about that?" Yangyang looked at Kun, the older nodding. "Yes of course, you don't have to answer that right now. I was just curious." Yangyang smiled slightly, continueing to eat his pizza as he let his mind think about how he could possibly explain it to Kun. Yangyang's vision and impression of the world was so different than other people, that it was almost impossible to simulate or explain it. Yangyang glanced at Kun again as he thought of something. "Maybe I can tell you what I feel or sense when we do something. Like.. make you aware of how I see the world." Kun looked up and nodded, actually feeling stupid for not having thought of that earlier. He smiled and patted Yangyang's shoulder. "Good idea. We can do that tomorrow."

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Yangyang snuggled under the blanket as he waited for Kun to come to the bedroom. Kun had offered Yangyang to sleep alone in the guest bedroom, but after Yangyang had gotten heavy nightmares or was unable to sleep alone, they had changed to sleeping in the same bed. They both didn't mind sleeping in the same bed, as they were quite similar in sleeping habits. Yangyang was a cuddler, and they had found a body pillow that he could hold in his sleep. Kun liked to spoon the younger, feeling like he was protecting him that way. Kun smiled as he saw Yangyang already so comfy in the bed, chuckling softly. "Ready to sleep?" Yangyang nodded and looked at Kun, smiling cutely at him. Kun took off his socks and then climbed into the bed, moving close to Yangyang, spooning him lovingly. If any outsider would see them like this, they would have second thoughts, but for Yangyang and Kun it was just a normal way of sleeping. Yangyang hummed and wriggled slightly until he was perfectly comfortable. Kun stroked over the younger's hair a bit, closing his eyes. Yangyang kept his eyes open, still thinking about what Kun had asked him earlier. "Kun gege?" Kun hummed and nodded. "Yes?" "Can I explain about what happened?" Kun opened his eyes again, looking at the back of Yangyang's head, suddenly not tired anymore. "Uh yeah, go ahead. I'll listen." Kun smiled slightly, happy that Yangyang took the initiative to talk about it.

Yangyang bit his lip. "When we got out.. in the parking spot.. there was already lots of sounds. It was like I heard everything. And then.." Yangyang sighed. "The building was so big.. I felt like I had to explore it all but.. when we went inside.." Kun stroked over Yangyang's side, trying to comfort him. "Then?" "I felt so.. it was all just so much. I got scared... I didn't know where everything was.." Yangyang pouted slightly, sighing deeply. Kun kissed Yangyang's head. "You felt overwhelmed." "Yeah.." Yangyang played with the hems of his sleeves. "Then a crying baby.. which.. the sound.. it didn't seem to disappear.." Yangyang groaned. "Smells of food.. I could hear the beeps.. I don't know.. there were beeps and.. a high tone.." Yangyang shivered and hid his face in the pillow. Kun hugged him and hummed a melody. "It's okay. It was all too much. There was too many input for you. I get it. I'm sorry for taking you.." Kun said softly. Yangyang made a small sound. "But.. I wanted to go with you.. but..maybe when it's not so loud.." Kun nodded and let the information sink in. It seemed Yangyang had noticed every single small detail in the supermarket, and Kun could imagine that if he was aware of everything around him, his body went into overload. Kun felt Yangyang take Kun's hand, squeezing in it softly. "I'm sorry for crying.." "No no, don't apologize. You couldn't do anything about it. I understand what you mean. I'll try and watch those things next time.." Kun thought of anything that would help someone with sensory issues, and remembered that noise-cancelling headphones could be helpful. "Do you think it would help if the sounds would be gone? Like, if you don't hear the baby, the beeps, the chatting.." Yangyang hummed as he thought about it. "Maybe... I don't know.." Yangyang shivered. "I don't wanna feel like I'm in a padded room.." "No no, it won't feel like it. We'll try it sometime, okay? I want to help you." Kun smiled and kissed Yangyang's head again. "Let's go sleep now, okay? Tomorrow is a new day to explore the world further." Yangyang nodded and closed his eyes. They moved so they were comfortable, and sleep quickly took over.