*YEDAM'S POV* TW/// SELF HARM
"Where were you."
Yedam sighed, his attempt to go unnoticed failed. He closed the door behind him and clenched his jaw as he turned.
"I went out with my friends to finish a project." He said trying to seem casual.
His aunt set down the remote in her right hand and got up from her chair. She walked up to Yedam, cigarette in her other hand and stared at him.
Afraid, he stared at her feet.
"Hey. Look at my eyes when you're speaking you little shit."
Yedam bit the inside of his cheek but looked up slowly. "Yes ma'am." He muttered in reply.
"Where were you again?"
"I was," Yedam restated, "finishing a project with some friends."
"Oh really?" His aunt laughed mockingly. "Then where is your backpack?"
Yedam knew he messed up.
"So now you're lying to me on a daily basis, huh? What do you take me for? An idiot? I'm sick of you and you bull shit." She grabbed Yedam by the back of his head forcefully and dragged him across the hallway.
"Aunt. P-please— please don't do this." Yedam tried to remove her hand but he was too weak.
His aunt laughed and stopped in her tracks. She bent down, pulling his head back and stared at him, caressing his face.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" She yelled as she slapped him across the face. "ALL YOU DO IS CAUSE PROBLEMS. THIS IS THE ONLY WAY TO SET YOU STRAIGHT." She shook his head with every word and got up to continue dragging him downstairs.
Yedam bit his cheek to keep from crying out loud, as was pulled along. He could feel his chest tighten with every step.
"Now," His aunt said after reaching the basement door and pulling out her keys, "This will teach you to lie to me. Remember fucker, i have eyes on you and I know when you're going to waste your time at the music shop. Next time I catch you there you're going to be sleeping in the dog house. Understood?" She slammed the door open and grabbed Yedam, and proceeded to throw him down the steps.
"I'll come get you in two days once you've learned your lesson." She stated before closing the door and locking it shut.
As the door closed, Yedam felt he couldn't breathe. It's gonna be okay . It's gonna be okay.
After years of abuse he had become claustrophobic and afraid of the dark, to the point where he dealt with an onslaught of panic attacks every time he was locked in the basement.
Unable to calm himself down he slowly opened a secret compartment on the 6th step and took out what was inside.
A box cutter.
This will help me. This is the only way to be calm. calm.
Ever so careful to not go to deep, he carefully glided the blade into the skin of his wrist and stared, numb to the pain.
Slowly he felt himself calm down as his wrist turned redder and redder. He smiled at his work.
finally.. it's quiet.
the ringing in his ears stopped and he felt himself get lightheaded. He laid his head down on the floor and closed his eyes, slowly lulling himself to sleep.
I miss you everyday dad. I hope you miss me too. Whenever you are. You're the only reason, I haven't given up, so please, give me sign that you haven't given up on me.
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a/n:
hope that wasn't confusing lol i'm sleepy and a new sk8 episode comes out tomorrow! lol see ya next time!
p.s sorry if y'all got a notif saying a uploaded another chapter when it's just this one, i was editing it haha. also if you don't mind go check out my new mashikyu story :) hehe luv y'all <3
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Fanfiction"so are you just gonna keep following me around?" "..." "just because you're not talking doesn't mean i can't see you" "well, shit" ~~ Since he was a child, Harutos life has always been like an open book. Certain, and definite, but a bit held back...
