*this is everywhere just like my mind sorry
things have gotten worse, i've cried every night for 3 weeks straight. i'm so numb but hurting at the same time. i got put back on insulin and i'm not even a type 1 diabetic and i have to lose a bunch of weight to stay off of it.. i have no motivation to do anything but listen to music and breathe. i feel like a failure, an idiot. i feel so alone. i don't think i'll ever shake that feeling though. i decided that i was gonna move out in august of 21 with my friends if we get accepted to the same college. i'm not even happy about that. i'm in a constant loop of confusion and pain. i wish things were normal again. i have to get a mri.. for headaches which are getting worse bc of stress but i can't help it. i sleep for 8 hours and wake up tired. i can't control my anger. i just feel lost and i don't now what to do. i'm tired of being lonely and being the only person i have to talk to..
