this is an angry insert.. my dad got very pissed off at me bc i didn't tell him why i can't back from the store so upset, i forgot my mask and then my beautician said she wasn't gonna be able to do my hair tomorrow.. and i didn't wanna tell him bc he was just gonna say "you'll be okay" this is something i know but that doesn't really help the fact that i wanted to get out of the house. but he tried to kick me out... i was in my parents room and i asked my mom for a septum piercing and she said no so i asked him and he said do whatever you want. i didn't respond and just grabbed my insulin pen and my headache medicine and was about to take it and he said " and if you're gonna say something smart assed, you can take whatever the fuck you got on and get out" so i left the room. i've taken way too much. i'm tired of being gaslit. i'm tired of being told to fuck off in so many words. i'm tired of everything that's going on. i get no peace from anywhere. not from myself, not from him or school. i don't fucking care about how you think i should handle situations. my mouth is one way when im at home and one way out in public. there are limits everywhere i am and no one reaches my limits at work like my dad does. i can't have a moments peace without him calling me IN CLASS. to get him the nail clippers or something that doesn't fucking matter... (yes i know these are stupid and first world problems and i should be happy i still have my dad.. i am bc he's the man who gave me life but i hate him in every other aspect) i'm just gonna end this here .. cause i leave in 10 days... bye
