Sleep just won't come easy to me tonight, will it?
I've been tossing and turning trying to find the right position.
But it's not the bed, not a bit.
It's these thoughts that have hit the ignition.
I spray lavender scents in my room.
I rub my temples to soothe the thoughts.
But once again I feel so gloom.
My mind is in complete knots.
I'm in a state of complete shambles. I feel I'm floating in space.
My head is spinning with embarrassing memories.
I want to cry, but I keep a relaxed face.
How I wish I had responded better to that rude comment, but now they're just memories.
Oh, here come the funny jokes I'll never tell anyone.
Mainly because as soon as I open my mouth I start to laugh.
That's probably why they all think I'm no fun.
Aaaah I'm going to need a coffee later today, maybe a cup and a half.
Oh no, here come the insecure thoughts.
I'm too fat, I'm too plain, I'm not what He would want.
My face, my reflection. I see too many spots.
All these comments just come back to haunt.
I have insomnia.
The worst I've ever had.
Later today I'll feel hypersomnia.
Maybe that's not so bad.
