The Choice of Love

Chapter 2: Emergency

(1 year ago)

In the middle of our topic in our math discussion, someone knocked at the door. Our subject teacher opened the door and it was our school guidance counselor.

"Excuse me miss, I'll have to excuse Miss Kelsey Andrette Van, it's an emergency." Nagpapaalam na sabi ng aming school guidance counselor sa aming subject teacher, and I noticed she was with our family driver behind her.

"Go on, Miss Andrette, you are excused." sabi ng aming subject teacher, I hurried because when our guidance counselor said its an emergency, I was scared it was something about nila mom or dad.

Nagmamadali akong pumunta sa aming sasakyan, with our family driver. Naghalohalo lahat ng mga emosyons ko, because mahina ako sa math tsaka i'm scared na baka mafail ako sa subject na yun just because i was excused, pero if its about mom and dad hindi ko nayun aalahanin ang math subject. I also looked at our Family Driver, he was also worried. I can tell by his expression and face.

"M-manong, ano po nangyare?" I tried to ask calmly, baka mag-aalala siya lalo, pag nalaman niya na natataranta din ako.

"Yung mama mo, nasa hospital siya ngayon." he said calmly, pero i can still tell by his face and the way siya nagtalk, he was also worried.

After he said those words, I immediately starts to worry and overthink because it was Mom.

"Anong kaya nangyare?" "Na-accident ba siya?" "Wag sanaaa" "Please Lord tulungan niyo po ang Mama ko." Yan yung mga salita nasa utak ko. Hindi ko na namalayan nasa hospital na kami.

"Room 852 ang room ng mommy mo." sabi ni manong driver, para hindi na akong maghintay sa kaniya at baka magparking pa siya sa car.

I quickly got off the car and the hospital is not that kind of busy I asked the nurses in the front desk where room 852 is, one nurse guided me kung saan. I look above the room there was "852".

I immediately opened the room and I saw mom laying in a hospital bed, she was still sleeping, there are tubes in her nose, dextrose and she was wearing a blue coat. Meanwhile, Dad was in the corner, I can tell that was worried.

I rushed into Mom's bed at I hugged her which made her woke up, there were tears in my eyes. I was so happy that she was okay, but the sadness are overflowing.

"Wag kang mag-alala anak, okay na ako" she said while smiling at me.

"I'm happy that you're okay, Ma" I said while crying and hugging her still. I was so worried that I didn't know what I would do.

She just smiled at me, baka masakit pa ang katawan niya, I totally understand. I looked at Dad he was behind me, I can see that he also have tears eyes.

I hugged him without saying anything. I know his also worried but all I can give is a hug, everyone deserves it.

We talked for a while, I asked what happened earlier, It turns out na sumuka ng dugo si mama and she fainted, kaya dinala na siya sa hospital sa among family driver, buti nalang hindi daw traffic kaya dali-dali silang nakaabot sa emergency room at buti nalang daw hindi gaano ka busy ang hospital, at natulongan sila sa mga nurses and doctors.

I am still worried but I tried to calm myself down, upang hindi masyadong maworry sila mama at dad, alam kong kaya ni mama eh.

Lumabas ako saglit para pumunta sa beverage machine sa hospital, uhaw na kase ako. Nakita ko si manong driver kanina, nag-aalala din siya. Since bata palang kami siya na ang family driver namin, kaya he was like part of our family na.

Wala akong masyadong ginawa sa hospital, nagcellphone lang ako sa room ni mama, hanggang ma okay na siya. I look at the time it was 10:30 pm, malapit na mag midnight mag study pa ako for my academic, ilang days nalang exam na namin, kaya inihatid ako ni manong driver sa bahay, May yaya naman kami na nakabantay sa bahay kaya wala ng problema sila mom and dad sa bahay at sa'kin.

Dad stayed at the hospital to take care of mom. Hindi pa kase pwede e discharge si mom, kase hindi pa naclarify sa doctor ang reason kung bat siya nagkakaganun kanina.

They also never mentioned to me what exactly happened, they said it is bad for me kase malapit na ang exam namin, ayaw nila ako ipastress, pero mas lalo akong naiistress dahil ayaw nila sabihin.

A few weeks later.

Kakatapos ko lang sa exam ko kahapon. I forced Mom and Dad to tell me what happened, kase mas nagooverthink talaga ako pag may nalaman ako pero hindi ko alam lahat.

Overthinker ka ghorl.

It turns out, may cancer si mama, stage 4. She has to take chemotherapy, every now and then. She only have 4% survival rate kaya nagpra-pray ako lagi na maayos ang kaniyang palagay.

Everyday, she became more weaker. She lost lots of weight, she has no hair, and she became weaker, but I know that she's still fighting for me, and for her family. Pero nasasaktan ako nakikita siya nahihirapan.

Parang wala na akong gana, sa studies ko, because without her, I am nothing. That was I thought. Hindi ko nga alam kung makapasa ba ako sa exam na tinake ko, si mama ang lagi 'kong iniisip.

Now, since mom is in chemotherapy, the doctor suggested na hindi muna kami makavisit sa kanya, kase daw may possibiliy or risk na magcontact ang chemotherapy drugs na nasa kay mama, or body fluids. Kaya nagvivideo call nalang kami or text everyday.

I miss her. I want to hug her.

The last thing I remembered she said to me was " If you ever got lonely anak, just look at the sky, admire the beauty of the stars, the moon, and always remember that someone, somewhere, and I will be there looking at it too."

I remembered it and suddenly tears of joy formed in my eyes.