THUD

chapter 2

It is cold.

I am really cold.

And it hurts. Everything hurts. I can't locate the source of pain; it is from all over.

I should open my eyes. But it's so hard, it is like the weight of the universe is resting on my eyelids.

It didn't take much digging in my memory for last night's events to surface.

You. It was you.

You did it again.

I have to get up before you do, I have to take measurements. I need to protect myself.

With what little energy I had left I forced my eyes open only to find an unfamiliar scene before me. It wasn't the window that I was greeted by usually from my side of bed no it was the foot of the bed. I was not in bed no I was on the floor and my bare legs and arms were pressed against the cold tiles. That's why I'm so cold, that's why I'm in pain. I tried to move again but pain shot up my spine and threw me back onto the ground.

You... you just threw me here...? You just left me here...?

There it was again, that fire in my stomach, rising higher and higher. I was not angry no; I was way beyond angry.

How the fuck did I end up here? Why was I on the floor?

And where the fuck are you?

Just the thought of you made the fire in my stomach roar and for a second that fire numbed my pain and I pushed myself off of the floor. At the beginning, it was like a lamp went off in me and everything went dark, my ears rang and my hands shook. I placed my palms flat onto my forehead and tried to steady myself until I could see again and the ringing faded.

I looked around and sure enough there you are, in bed, sleeping face down horizontally taking up all the space. The covers were thrown on the floor, just like I was, and you were hugging the pillows really close, the way you used to hold me at the beginning.

Where did I go wrong? What did I do to deserve this?

Why?

Why me?

I looked around the room again, the room that had turned into my hell with demons and dark memories lurking in each corner and hiding behind the furniture. Those four walls that I thought would hold only happiness and loving memories are now a prison, a cage

But it was not time to ponder and regret it was time to act.

I am done. I am done with you.

it's time to go, time to move on and start over.

I tried, I tried to give you a chance and I gave you time to fix this. But as time passed you got more and more toxic, more and more unbearable.

You are not worth my time.

You are not worth all this pain.

it is time.

It is time to go.

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short chapter, but will be posting chapter 3 tomorrow 

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