We'll Be Tonightless(Ricky Horror FanFic)

Chapter 13

I woke up and I was in my room.
I attempted to sit up but arms were holding me, preventing me from getting up.
I looked at saw Ricky sleeping.
As I tried to remove his arms from me, he woke up.
"Where are you going?" He asked.
I tried to speak but it came out as breath so I pointed to the door and made it look like I was about to piss my pants.
He nodded and buried his face in the pillow again.
I ran to the bathroom and searched for what I needed.
I found the lighter and a smile appeared on my face.
I brought it up to my skin and lit it, making an oval, taking it away before it can blister.
A wave of relief passed throughout my body but the pain from my lower was almost unbearable.
I looked in the mirror and my neck was still red, along with cuts on my face.
I cringed at my reflection and turned away from the mirror.
I hid the lighter, put on the jacket that was in there and walked out.
I went straight to my room and fell asleep again.
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I've been hiding in my room for the past few weeks, in fear someone will hurt me again.
I've been having night terrors of what happened and it's literally driving me insane.
Someone knocked on the door to my bedroom and I jumped, thinking the worst.
"W-who is it?" I asked, trembling.
"Ricky." The soft voice of the boy I longed for said.
I got up slowly and opened the door for him.
"What." I asked, trying to sound brave.
"Look at you, you're terrified of men." He said, sounding hurt.
"I-I am not." I said, backing up quickly as he got closer.
"You're backing away from me." He said, nearly crying.
I lowered my head in shame and felt him touch me, which caused me to flinch.
He became angered and left, leaving me feeling useless.
"I should end this now..." I said to myself. "People will only continue to hurt me."
I made my way to the bathroom, determined.
"Nicole, don't even think about." Said a male voice.
I spun around and saw Chris
"Twin..." I said weakly and he ran to me and hugged me tightly; I returned the favor.
"I'm so stupid..." I repeated over and over into his chest, even though he denied it.
"You're not stupid Nicole. Don't put yourself down like that." He would say.
"I'm sorry Chris." I said and he just shook his head.
"You shouldn't be apologizing to me." He said and kissed my forehead, walking away after telling me to be strong.
I took a deep shaky breath and stood up, feeling anxious.
I readied myself for him to scream at me and walked to his room, knocking so soft to where I could barely hear it.
"Come in." He said, his voice cracking horribly.
I slowly opened the door, and cowardly walked in.
"Ricky, I'm sorry for being afraid of you..." I said, making it sound stupider than when I thought of it.
He got up from his bed and hugged me tightly.
"I overreacted Nicole. I just assumed you wouldn't be afraid of the one you loved and it hurt a little." He explained to me, sniffling.
"I'm sorry..." I whispered and started crying.
At this point, I felt over dramatic, crying over nothing. I felt useless but I knew that wasn't the truth.
"Don't be, it's my fault for overreacting." He said, brushing my hair behind my ear and wiping my tears away with his thumbs.
His hands cupped my face while I rested my hands on his, staring intently into his eyes.
I wanted so badly to say those three words that would always be stored away for safe keeping, but I didn't.
He leaned his forehead against mine and smiled softly.
"Although your makeup is running, you're still so beautiful." He spoke gently, making me blush even darker than normal.
I looked away slightly, smiling.
"There it is. That perfect smile that makes my heart melt every time I see it." He said gently once again, my smile wider than before.
"I love you." I said, letting the words slip out of my mouth as if I had always said them to Ricky.
He looked shocked but only smiled.
"I love you too."