MGK: Every girl can be nasty [2] (ROOK)

12

A/N: I'm a disgrace 😂 but writers block is real😌😃😅

I couldn't believe it, I just stared at the lines, and wondered how I could be so out of touch with my own body, I couldn't tell him yet, I felt so down that I wasn't sure I even wanted it.  Maybe I could figure out how to live with the guilt. The guilt of hiding everything from him.

"Fake it till you make it." I mumbled to myself, as I stood up and walked back into the bedroom, I couldn't believe I had to take another bunch of them once I was at home just to make sure. I thought I'd film myself doing my makeup and cheer myself up since I had to finish off my video.

I tried re-recording and ended up getting so frustrated. I couldn't stop thinking about what I had done. I heard the sound of the house phone ringing and I couldn't bring myself to answer it. We practically never used it.

"Hey, this is Lucia I'm calling to check in and make sure your recovery is going well, get back in touch with me."   

I froze at the sound of her voice, and then found my heart racing when the phone rang again.

I rushed to the phone and picked it up.

"Leave me alone! Please get the fuck out of my life, I have proof of everything! Leave me alone and I'll leave you alone!" I hissed as I slammed the phone down.

I felt myself having a meltdown as I started to cry, everything was so overwhelming.

"Everything will be fine, she'll get bored." I whispered to myself erratically as I paced up and down.

I heard a rustle and went towards the noise, it was coming from outsideugh the door and knew it was probably her, I scoffed as I walked away and went back into the bedroom. If I ignored it, it would all go away, the guilt, Lucia, these feelings.

I cleaned up my makeup in the mirror and plastered a fake smile on my face, as I went to sit in front of the camera again...