My stepbrother wants me 2 || 𝓶𝔂𝓰 𝔁 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓻

21| The letter

[Y/n's POV]

Oh my God I'm such an idiot. I can't believe that I just jumped into conclusions like this..

I embarrassed Jimin and I'm sure that he feels awful right now

Good job Y/n, you're a smartass

Yes, smart my ass

What the heck is wrong with me.. I should have noticed that his feelings are different towards me. But my stupid ass is living in its own world

I won't allow awkwardness to take over

And certainly, I'm not gonna hurt his feelings. I just need a specific and good way to talk to him and clear things up. He is my everything; he was by my side for so long and I won't let anyone to hurt him

Not even myself

"Jimin can we please talk about it for a while?" I put my hand on his shoulder as he turned his body around to leave

"I told you I don't want to" He lowered his head and ran his fingers through his hair desperately

I went in front of him and lowered my head to look at his eyes "I want us to talk about it because I'm sure that you'll feel much better when the conversation ends. Please take everything out of your chest"

"Y/n.." He raised his gaze and his glowing eyes met mine

I sighed "We've promised to each other that we'll always share our problems, issues and?" I paused to let him finish the sentence

"...emotions" He looked away

I took his hand and walked with him towards the small couch

When we sat down he looked at me for a while before starts talking "I've been always into you Y/n" He looked at his lap while playing with his fingers "I was too scared to express my feelings because I thought that you'll feel awkward and maybe you wouldn't want to be no more with me"

"You should have told me from the beginning.." I crossed my arms

"But you'd have rejected me" He sighed "I didn't want to think that I'll never have a chance to make you mine so I decided to wait for the appropriate time" His eyes seemed to be watering up again

If he cries I swear I'll cry with him. In some way I can feel his pain

"But when I decided that I'll talk to you.." He stopped talking as his voice cracked "You told me that you were in love with Yoongi"

I wrapped my hands around his body and gave him a tight hug

I felt his strong heartbeat through his chest. He must have been through a lot because of me

"I'm so sorry Jimin" I whispered

He placed his hands on each side of my waist and pulled back "Don't apologise" He shook his head "I'm the coward here. If I should have told you, who knows.. you would probably have been with me now"

Well...

"...I was a coward back then too" I rested my back on the couch

He furrowed his eyebrows "Wait...what?"

"When we grew up I had a huge crush on you but I didn't tell you anything because I was thinking the same things as you. I didn't want to ruin our friendship" I sighed heavily as I felt the relief filling me. I feel better now that he knows

He looks so surprised

"Those feelings slowly disappeared and then... I met an idiot who now is the cause of my euphoria" I smiled as I thought of the relationship I have with Yoongi. But Jimin is very precious to me and I hope he knows it "You Jimin.." I put my hand on his and looked at his eyes "You were always there and made me laugh when I thought that I'll never smile again. We've been through a lot together, remember?"