-A Little Help- (KuroKen)

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-Slight mention  of eating disorder-

(Kuroos POV)

Lunch came slowly, my mind couldn't stop thinking about my frail neighbor. He hadn't texted me since his attack and he still refused to tell me what caused it. I did my best to get out of class quickly so that I could meet him in front of his classroom, I really didn't want him walking alone right now. I peeked into the room and saw only Yamamoto and Kenma left, it appeared like Yamamoto was waiting for Kenma to pack up his things. He glanced over at me and our eyes met, he nodded his head at me and I returned it. He then mumbled something to Kenma, which I couldn't hear, and walked towards the door.

"What happened?" Yamamoto asked as he approached the classroom door I was waiting at.

"Don't know, he wouldn't say." Yamamoto glanced back at Kenma who was zipping up his bag and throwing it over his shoulders.

"Take care of him." He walked past me and began to walk towards the cafeteria. Meanwhile Kenma also began to walk towards me.

"Ready to go?" I asked trying my best to smile at the sad boy, hoping that my happiness would spread to him. He just shook his head yes and kept his gaze down. Whatever caused that attack must still be on his mind. I need to get him to talk about it before he tries to... I can't let him do that again.

We made our way to the roof for lunch, finding an empty table away from the other students. Kenma plopped down across from me and pulled out his psp. Again, I wish he would talk to me more but maybe Kenma's only true soulmate is his video games. I laughed at that thought and pulled out two bento boxes.

"What?" Kenma asked in regards to my random laughter. He peered out from behind his psp and eyed the two boxes on the table. "Why'd you bring two?" He asked before returning to his game. I quickly snatched the console from him and put it in my pocket. "Hey Kuroo!" I slide one of the boxes over to him.

"I brought an extra for you cause I knew you weren't going to bring one." I laughed again and watched his pouting face, he whined like a child being told they had to go to sleep. Everything about the scene in front of me was perfect. Kenma's hair fell softly right above his shoulders, almost hiding part of his face, the corner of his lips dragged down to show how displeased he was with the situation. He looked cute as always. Everytime I look at him my heart skips and I just want to run up and give him a hug but I contain myself. Mostly because I know Kenma would not like the sudden contact, however, it's getting harder to ignore my growing feelings.

"Kuroo I'm not hungry really it's fine. Can I have my game back now?" I knew very well Kenma wasn't eating, I'm not sure why though, but either way I'm not going to let him starve himself anymore.

"You need to eat if you want energy for practice later." Suddenly the atmosphere completely shattered. Did I say something wrong?

"I," He began, speaking even more quietly then he was before. "think I'm going to stop. Volleyball I mean." He looked down and fiddled with his sleeves.

"What! No Kenma you can't quit!" Everything in my mind was swirling around. Why did he want to quit? Did something happen? I can't let him go that easily. I went over to sit next to him grabbing the sides of his arm shaking him slightly. "Kenma, why do you want to quit? I thought you liked volleyball?" Don't tell me he didn't like it this whole time, was he just playing it for me? Did I force him to do something he didn't like.

"It's not that." Oh thank god. Wait but then, why?

"You can't quit then! If you like it you gotta keep doing it! I understand it might not be fun right now but I'm not letting you leave, I need you!" Oh shit. Did I really just tell him I needed him? I might have said too much. I stared into his eyes expecting them to be scared, terrified actually, but I didn't find either of those. Instead he was confused? Huh. I let go of his arms and relaxed myself a bit. "Kenma, until you can laugh and say you're having fun I'm not going to let you go, ok? I want you to be happy and play volleyball with me." I moved back to my seat across from Kenma. I opened my bento box and began to eat my food, watching and waiting for Kenma to look up at me. Eventually he did.

"Ok Kuroo. I'll stay." His voice was quiet, almost a whisper like he didn't want people to know what he said, but I heard it. I smiled at him and handed him a pair of chopsticks.

"Now eat, you need the energy." He grabbed the chopsticks from me and opened the box to eat.

(Kenmas POV)

As I ate the lunch from the bento box Kuroo gave me, I noticed that the portions were smaller. I don't like eating, I haven't for a while, but Kuroo makes me eat and he watches me to make sure I eat at lunch. He went through the trouble of making me a bento box, so for Kuroo I will eat. 

Since I haven't been eating much it's hard for me to eat a normal amount of food without getting sick, I'm still recovering and readjusting to regular portions. So when I opened the bento box Kuroo gave me and saw the smaller portions I was happy. He gets what I'm going through without me even telling him. I'm lucky to have someone as amazing as Kuroo. While I still don't like eating, and when I'm at home I don't really do it, he is right about the energy thing. Volleyball in the summer was hard and I was always tired now that I'm being forced to eat, things are getting a little easier for me.

As I ate my lunch I found myself looking at Kuroo every so often, I felt... strange. My heart would beat a little faster, like an anxiety attack but not quite as fast, and I felt happy. I enjoyed being around Kuroo and I want to be around him for as long as I can. I don't really understand emotions, for the most part they always seemed like something I wanted to get rid of. Emotions have only ever screwed me over so I never really took the time to learn about them. So right now, this emotion I feel I don't know what it is. 

I know that when Kuroo picks me up for school and comes to my class for lunch I'm the happiest. However, on the other side of the spectrum when Kuroo drops me off at home or we split for our different classes I'm sad. I know that when we hold hands to and from school I get nervous and my face gets hot and it feels like I have a fever. I don't really understand what these things mean about me and my relationship with Kuroo but as long as he sticks by me, I think I'm ok with not knowing some things.

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Can I just say the next chapter made me lowkey sad to write.