Jerk

Junhoe

Junhoe's POV

Feeling the gush of cold showers hitting my strained muscles from the training helps me relax a little. A week has passed since Jinhwan was hospitalized, ever since then I still can't help stressing over what Jinhwan said at that time with Donghyuk.

I just arrived at the door and was about to open the door when Donghyuk asked Jinhwan, that made my hand stop from opening the door. "So how about Junhoe? What are gonna do about him?" asked Donghyuk. There was silence and I thought he was not gonna answer, I was about to open the door again but then he spoke.

"I like Junhoe, maybe even to the point where I love him already."

He loves me? I am overjoyed but what about Hanbin? Didn't he say he loved him too? "But?" Donghyuk said. "But.. I feel like I'm not deserving to accept his love. I-I'm a mess Donghyuk. I made a huge mistake and I don't want Junhoe to be involved in any way when it concerns his best friend. I don't want him to choose between us."

What Jinhwan said made my fist clenched. I'm angry at Hanbin for the mess he made and I am angry at myself because what Jinhwan said is true. Instead of me being here taking care of Jinhwan I should've been at Jiwon's side comforting him. I'm a failure as a friend. How pathetic.

When I entered the room it was like they never talked about me at all. Ever since then I've been restless. I didn't contact nor visited Jinhwan once, I've been with Jiwon taking care of his drunk self. He has been cooped up in their house hoping and waiting for Hanbin to still come back to him.

Getting out of the shower I bumped into someone when I was about to say sorry I saw it was Chanwoo, he has been avoiding me since last week knowing what happened. He was about to run away from me when I grabbed him. "Wait. Can I talk to you for a second?" He was trembling, I mean he should be as I'm stronger than him. He nodded and I let him shower.

Sitting at the bench outside the gymnasium, Chanwoo finally came out of the building and he walked straight to me. Sitting beside me leaving a safe distance between us. There was a moment of silence when I finally spoke, "How's Jinhwan?"

"If you're asking if Hanbin and him were still together, no Junhoe." I was shocked by his answer. I looked at him to find any lies or nervousness but he was serious. "What? Why?"

"What do you mean why? Jinhwan ended it the day after he was discharged. If you wanna know about the details why won't you ask him yourself."

I was stunned. If Jinhwan ended it with him then why didn't he at least contact me? Is he really gonna just avoid me because of what he said back at the hospital? That's utter bullshit. He said he loves me, if it's about Jiwon I'm sure he can understand that. Yes it would be hard for him at the start but eventually he would get over it and support me as I'm still his best friend. I can't let this end just like that. I have to get to Jinhwan. I have to get to my man.

I stood up and Chanwoo was shocked by my action, I guess he's nervous I might hurt him or something. But that's not what's important right now. "I need to get to Jinhwan now." I muttered and Chanwoo must have heard it because he stood up too and grabbed my shoulders.

"Jinhwan is my best friend, it pains me to see him sad and hurt. I've seen Jinhwan with you and he was the happiest, so what I'm saying is if you ever hurt him I won't let it slide even if it's you Captain."

I smiled at what he said and reassured him that I would never hurt Jinhwan, over my dead body. Happy Jinhwan is the prettiest thing in the whole world so I won't do anything to tear that away from him. After that I ran to my car and started my drive to Jiwon, if I'm gonna pursue Jinhwan we have to go all out. I'm gonna make sure first it's okay with Jiwon.

Opening the door to the house the smell greeted me, the smell of booze and cigarettes. Jiwon was a heavy smoker during college but when he and Hanbin got together he quitted because Hanbin didn't like the smell of it. This is harder than I thought, I began picking up the bottles and throwing them at the trash can. Then I make my way to Jiwon.

He's asleep, the room's a mess. I decided to tidy up and wait for him to wake up, it's better to talk when he's sober and not drunk.

I was at the last bottle when I heard he was finally waking up. I hurriedly threw the bottle and came back to the room and saw he was not there. Instead I hear someone throwing up at the bathroom, and there he was face in the bowl emptying himself up. I hunched at him and gently patted his back to soothe him. What Chanwoo said is my words too, I hate seeing my best friend like this.

After a few minutes he was finally done. I can't help my face to be sad and show concern for my friend. He saw this and cursed at me. "Fucking stop looking at me like I'm dying."

If he continues being like this he would surely die. I didn't reply and helped him stand and made him sit at the chair, "Jiwon we need to talk."

"Yeah yeah get me a water first. Cold water."

I got him some water and sitted in front of him. "About Jinhwan.."