My Escape || Larry Stylinson

Without You

A/N: Before you read, I just wanted to say the names of these chapters are going to be the names of songs that fit it.  So this first song is Without You - Lana Del Rey.

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Louis' Pov:

It's been two years. Two years since I ruined her life. People say it's not my fault, but I can't help and think it is. If we hadn't gotten in a fight, she wouldn't have stormed off to her special place where she can just release her feelings through ice skating.

My girlfriend, Tia, was the perfect girl for me. And I had to ruin it. We were fighting, she left to the ice skating rink, and did some tricks. But apparently, she got hurt from doing one, which ended up causing a concussion, soon to be led to a coma.

The doctors "pulled the plug" as they like to say. I was devastated, and I still am.

If I had only not fought with her....things would be so different.

The doctors wouldn't allow me to see her.  They thought that I would hurt her, which I thought was ridiculous.  I didn't get to see her before she....

They said they'd host the funeral in a few days, which just happened to be when I was out of town.

Everyday I go to visit her grave, which is what I was going to do right now. 

I walked through the freezing, white snow, holding pink, new orchids.  The gray clouds were out right now, like they always were when I visited her. 

I crouched down, and re-red the marble tombstone.

R.I.P.
In Loving Memory Of:
Tia Nicole Lankey
1995-2015
~ A true angel and gift from God
who contributed her life to others ~

I put the pink orchids next to her grave, and took the old ones to throw away.  I did this everyday. I knew they'd die, but they bring happiness to me. They remind me of her and when we first met. That was when I picked up a pink orchid from the ground and put it in her hair. She smiled and I smiled back, telling her how beautiful she is.

A tear escaped my eye, which was when I let out a shaky breath. I felt a rain drop on my hand, and I stared at it.  Just, looking at it.

I turned away and knew I had to go. I looked up at the sky and noticed that there was a quick flash of lightning to the left of me.  I decided to start walking away, the pink, dead orchids resting in the grasp of my hand.

Once I got home, I threw the orchids away and sat on my bed, just thinking about what could be different.  I blame myself everyday for what I've done.  Niall says I should get help, but I just push that idea away. He doesn't know how it feels to lose the one person that made me feel like I had nothing to worry about. Niall has Crystal, his girlfriend. He doesn't know. He just doesn't.

I started to think more about Tia, remembering how she loved food, which sent my tastebuds flying, but I ignored it. I don't feel the need to eat. What do you get out of it anyways?  I remember Tia always ate food - she loved it. Especially raw cookie dough. I'd always laugh at her when she'd eat it and she'd question what was so funny.

Her laugh rang through my head as I let out a little chuckle. Her little ways always made me smile.

I forbid myself to eat, for it was something Tia always did. I know it's not good, but I can't go back now. My stomach is so used to the emptiness that I became accustomed to it.

I heard a knock at my door and went to go answer it.  I opened the door to see Niall, standing there and looking down.

"What is it?" I asked tiredly.

"Um, come with me.  We gotta go," he said, avoiding eye contact.

"Go where?" I asked, confusion written across my face.

"Um, somewhere."

"Niall, where?"

"Somewh-"

"Damn it Niall! Just tell me!"

"FINE! The clinic!" He yelled just as loud as I did, and I was taken aback.

"Um, excuse me? I'm not going to any clinic," I was starting to become cold due to the weather of the outside coming inside and exploring the part of the house next to the opened door.

"Louis, please. Come on, you need to.  You and I both know it," he stated, matter-of-a-factly.

I took a deep breath. He was right. I did need help. I just didn't want it.

"Louis, it's the only way. This is getting way too far. Who knows what's going to happen next?" He pleaded.

I just looked down, staring at my feet that had grey socks on.

I looked up after a few seconds, nodding. He wasn't going to let this go anyways.

I got my shoes and jacket on before I headed into his car and we drove off.

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Hi! I hope you enjoy this first chapter, even though it was kinda boring and uninteresting, but it's because I needed to get all the boring kind of background stuff out first. So the next chapter should be a lot more interesting and YUS! I hope you enjoy this, and please understanding this is my first Larry book sooooooo yeah.  Alrighty this way too long haha

~Crystal