𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 | 𝐡𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐮

letter to hisoka

Dear Hisoka,

It's been 47 years since you passed. After that I didn't know if I wanted to continue living without you. After I got the letter you wrote to me, I cried for what seemed like an eternity. I kept that letter with me for so long, in fact I think it's right beside me right now.

It's been this long so things clearly changed my mind. I've always thought about how you said to continue living even if it was impossible. I know you're still living. You might not be here, but you are with me.

I visited your grave so often it would become of a routine. I'd switch all my plans accordingly so I could talk to 'you' again. Afterlife must be so calm and happy. We can soon be together again.

When I turned around 60, I caught a terrible cough. I didn't think much of it but it got so distracting that I checked in with my doctor, and here I am, writing this on my deathbed. Funny how life works, doesn't it?

I sometimes even order your favourite coffee and flowers when I went home from work. Expecting for you to be there, waiting for you to run into my arms with your warm embrace.

I've never found romantic love again, but I do love someone special now.

Well, about 23 years ago, when I was 59, a little girl complimented my ring you gave to me when our lips first met at 18. After her mother called for her, I thought I'd never see her again. Now she's like a grand-daughter to me. We talk lots and I tell her stories about us when we were young and reckless. She especially liked the the story about when I vandalized that wall with your face.

She's turned into such an intelligent lady overtime, she's now a nurse, and she takes care of me while I'm waiting for the day I leave this world. She's turn my ring into a necklace, my fingers are very thin now.

I am now old and wrinkly, a ripe age of 82. I never passed a day without thinking about you. I miss you, and my days left are slimming, I'll meet you again soon, my love. I promise. I'll tell you much more fanatical stories when I see you again, and we can make even more memories together.

Thank you for making that deal with me. I never regretted making it with you, even if we fought over stupid things. I never regretted being with you. I've always loved having you with me, even if I never showed it. Soon, we can be together until time no longer exists.

My ring still shines, that is how I know you are still with me.

- Illumi