I lost the love of my life. I let him go saying I needed a break but truth is that the pain of my life started catching up to me and when I'm in pain i push the ones that i love the most away. It's not his fault its mine. I was scared that if he saw me in the pain i was in he couldn't handle it and he would leave me. I have no idea if he still lives me or not. Or if he hates me. I dont know if hes gonna read this or if hell ignore it. Hes the best thing that has happened to me and I let him go. The pain I feel is unbearable it's like someone has taken a knife to my chest. Chose to ignore me if you will but I love you. Always have always will.
