This is a True Story Of My Life!

My Depression ..

Before you read please keep in mind that this is all True! And This is happing with me..This also Has Voices im not crazy I really have Voices in my Head.

My depression started when i was in pre-school i was bullied for roughly about 8 years(ive lost cound tbh) When i was in 8th grade but before we get into that i need to explain why i was Getting Bullied...I'm a Poor Kid And i have a LOT of problems as a Kid like how i Didnt know My Real Father and I Have Anxiety,panic attacks,neevous breakdowns and my Autism.I was always picked on for that and i felt really Outcasted and Bad about myself.Ive put on a Fake smile and pretend its okay..That's when I started to hear some Voices(no im not insane)
Yes I understand that Yall wont believe me When i say that but to a Kid that was being picked on You take anything to help I mean i thought if i told someone i would be picked on more,So I took and Listened to these voices and became friends with them..as years passed and i was in the 8th grade i had enough of the Bulling and I Snapped(The Very First time I Raised my Voice At Anyone) And I Wasnt Bullied Ever sinced..But Time passed and I Havent Heard the Voices in a few years That was Till my Best Friend Committed Suicide when we was Freshmen in high school.He Killed himself Due to bullies and He Could Have told me and I could have Picked up on and My Heart Broke In Half it was Shattered and I lost it..Thats when The Voices Came back and I Locked my Broken soul up behind Walls and my depression got pretty bad and i thought about Suicide I really did,But I was Saved by a Light That was My Other Friend Her name is Emily but I called Her "Em''s" she Legit Slapped me when i Told her what My Voices was Saying and She Told me if i Ever thought about that again She Would Kick my Ass,I understood and i knew what i said was wrong and I couldn't help it,I thought it was Getting better Ya'know but when i was a 11 grader The Day after my Birthday My Grandpa Passed away and It through me Into my Depressed state Worse than Before And to Top it all Off My Cousin Got Killed in a Motorcycle crash the Week after so If you thought my State was Worse it became 200X Because I Completely Shut Down...My Life Has Been Completely Shattered because my Two most IMPORTANT  people was now DEAD I didnt want to keep living so I didnt go to school for a while and Well my Soul(Heart) is Shattering even more than it was,I've now Been Hiding my Emotions and I Didnt Even Cry at the Funeral because my Hole Mind,Heart Was Completely Broken  It didn't register that I Had lost them Till Later that Night when I Cried Myself to Sleep every night.
I Have Now Gone through So Many Life Problems that The Voices that helped me Before Are now Telling me things That Put me Down everyday Because Recently My Family has gone through Drama and Anger and Ever Since I've left school My Depression has Gotten Worse so I did YT then Later on My Family Friend Got Murdered by his GF mother so My lifes been Going Down Hill Every day.
My heart has Finally Cracked and Ive lost the Will to smile or Laugh Genuinely and All i can do is fake Smile and Fake Laugh,Im Just Faking It all.

Anyway This is My life up till now and Ill be Making a PT 2 if It gets worse
Look i know some of yall will disbelief that i have voices inside my head that talks to me but i am not a lier when it comes to my mind emotions and talking about this stuff.