I'm Going To Love Like I'm Going To Lose You

Day 1: The Impossible

Do you believe that the balance of nature had created multi timelines where you will meet the love of your life once in a different parallel universe? Well i do and it happens but the consequences of it all were the happiest times of my life but also the sadiest...i lost the love of my life in three days times and it was all because of the selfishness of being loved is the reason she died. i wanted to stay and i wanted to be with her and live the days where i know she will be at her happiness but the light died inside of her and it did too in mines. That was 3 years ago but it still haunted me to this day. As i wash my 2016 Ford focus i was thinking about her beautiful black and blue braids and brown eyes and that soft beautiful mocha skin. She had a dimple in her left cheek and the way she smiles at the world you could tell it will be alright. I just wanted to love her and be with her but i couldn't, I crave for her and i needed her but one thing i notice that in the midst of the darkness God seems to always bring light. Now sit back and listen to our story, Our beautiful but sad ending story.

It all started February 14, 2020, on a Friday Night of love day

I was sitting in the movie theater watching the old boring lasted and let me tell you it was not how i plan my V-day but since i was weirdly single and no one like a corky guy that's skinny that loves anime and want to be a big writer one day but no woman want a nerdy, skinny black guy with big imaginations so you can see where the single life comes in at. On the Big screen was a movie called Practical Magic, to be honest, it was one of the best romantic movies out there. Yes, i said it im a young man that loves the idea of everything that has to do with the idea of romance. even if i didn't believe it myself but i do believe it for others. I used to always think i will love to find love in someone then hopeful ill find in me too but no luck there. I was the guy who will get beat up and used for my homework, I get told to kill myself because of my body size, and for a guy with little to no emotions, you can see in that category i didn't give a damn about there opinions. But sitting here watching this adorable little girl wishes for the love she dreamt about was amazing, the fact that she can wish up the kind of love she deserves was brilliant. But sadly we yall want to be able to create that love we all deserve or want, Where we won't be judged or abused by our significate other. But one thing i truly got from the whole movie is that love doesn't exist until you wish for it. Well, If you do that tell me how it works out. I'm sorry for being a stick in the mud about love but so far all it does is hurt me. I threw popcorn at the screen and got up to walk out the movie room, Seeing all the teens' swap spit as their minds tell them that they are in love but in reality they just into lust. Love isn't the whole typical love at first sight/ take me away but love me threw my worse day but hate me for loving you is so cliche. So why do i feel like it will happen to me one day?

I leaving the movie theater walking on the cold night street of Hoover Alabama, Just thinking with the shit that happens in the world how can one place create so much destruction can be so peaceful at night. The way the light lite up the world with no care and just peace show's a different perspective on what's going on. 25 mins later i walked up to the house, Yes the dead silents of depression just waiting for me to get sucked into a life i never asked for but let's just say im happy i have 3 days to get out of here. Yep im that man that's about to learn what the world is all about when i get to college. I'm at the top of my class, I have a perfect GPA and i wanted to go to NYU for the literature. Yes, i want to be a famous writer one day. One day you will see Calvin Dickerson on the back and front of a book cover one day. Yep in that order so suck it or love it but it will happen. Anyways let me tell you about the important factors of being Calvin. Im a jumper and like any Jumper i can jump threw time. There are different type of jumpers, some can jump threw different universes, Some can jump there space or gravity. I have never met another jumper but i have gotten information on what it is about. I have been jumping since i was 9 freaked me out of course but my parents never believe me on the gift i received But hey would you if i came out and told you i was a jumper? Yeah, i don't think you would if anything you would freak out just the way that i did.