touring || michael clifford

twenty eight. [c.a.m]

I was sat on the rooftop of our new house at 3am, in my Pyjamas and with a blanket. I was just taking everything in, I was living in a new country, with the people I cared about most, planning a job role that could change all of our lives, plus Rachel wanted me to do work from home, like researching, write-ups, the more 'paperwork' side.

But I still wasn't happy, I looked over to the house next door, the house where the boys were living, the house wher Michael was living. I was living next door to him, and I couldn't even speak to him. I loved him so much, I really did, I dont think I could fully get over him, theres just something about him, It's like my heart just goes into full power, all my goosebums rise like the witnesses in a courtroom. And I just feel myself when I'm around him, I feel at home in his arms, I feel like everything is going to be okay with him by my side.

I was in two minds though, I wasn't sure if I could fully forgive him for what he did to me, but the other side of me knew that he was drunk, that he didn't consciously make the decision to have sex with that girl, that he was very guilty and sorry for what he did. But I wasn't even sure if he loved me anymore, not even sure if he even wanted to be my friend again.

I gazed back over to his house, I saw a figure coming onto the roof, just like I was over here.

"I can see you" I laughed, thinking it was Ashton

"Oh, I-i'm sorry" a voice said as he turned back around, and I recognized it was Michael.

"NO! erm, I mean, No, dont go, stay please" I said, and he turned back around to face me, walking back over to the spot in which he was going to sit down.

"Hi" he nervously breathed

"Hi" I repeated him

He went to speak but I cut him off,  "I forgive you Michael" I blurted.

"Yo-you what?" He questioned

"I-I forgive you, I cant do this, I can't go on in life pretending that I'm okay when you're not there, because I know I'm not okay, I'm a mess, I need you Michael. I know you might not still like me, or even want to be my friend but I just need you to know that I still love you Michael, I just can't stop loving you, Its something you hold on me, Im just not able to be without you" I sighed

"Casey, I love you. I would never stop loving you okay?" He smiled, "This would normally be the part where I take you into my arms and kiss you like you've never been kissed before, but we are both on the tops of two different houses, and that's a safety hazard" He chuckled.

"There's the Michael I know and love" I smile

"So, a second chance?" he smiled

"I love you Michael Gordon Clifford, of course" I laughed

"So you're my girlfriend again?" He beamed.

"Indeed I am" I laughed, "Goodnight Mr Clifford"