too bad, you're not mine

2

It's Friday today. And Friday means one subject only. I got up later than usual. I usually wake up at 5:30 am when its Monday to Thursday. And wakes up at 7 when it's Friday.

At more or less 9 o'clock I arrived at our school. Our scheduled class for today starts at 10:40. So I still have an hour and 40 minutes to spare.

I sat at one of those chairs close to an electric fan because it's scorchung hot today. Unluckily, I'm a very sweaty person. Just a little bit of heat, and I'm sweating already.

I plopped myself and put on, once again, my earphones that I took off when I was greeting our adviser.

Ah, feels nice.

I took a picture of the electric fan and posted it on my story with a caption of, 'hello, my dear friend. we meet, once again.'

I closed my eyes when Stitches played. Humming to the song I scanned our room, looking for a particular dark-haired man.

"He's still not here." I mumbled at myself.

I shook my head and looked at our doorway. Searching. Waiting for him.

When I saw him walked in front of our room—because apparently you still have to take a turn before you could get in the hallway—instantly, a smile appeared at my lips. My day is complete!

When our eyes met I looked away, slowly, so he would not suspect that I was liberately looking for him. I ducked my head at my armchair and tried to look like I'm going to take a nap when in fact I was just waiting for him to enter our room.

Thoughts filled my mind. What if I'm very transparent about my feelings for him? Well, some of our friends are asking me if I have a crush on him. While, Lander, a new close friend of mine, asked me or more like stated that I have a crush on Geo. Which I, with all my might, answered no without looking like I'm someone indenial of her feelings.

I felt someone sat beside me. And I knew it was Geo when I heard him talked with his bestfriend, Cedrick.

I felt someone poked me. I looked at my side and I saw Geo looking serious.

What? I mouthed at him with a crunched forehead. Which I think he interpreted as me being annoyed at what he's done.

Which in fact was completely opposite of what I'm feeling. I was elated at the small skin contact. I was happy to see him. My heart was pounding just by looking at him eye to eye. I was a complete mess. All because of him.

And I gave myself a pat in the back that I stayed calm, atleast on the outside.

"Are we friends?" he asked casually.

My mind short-circuited at his question. First, because this is the first time someone asked me if I am their friend. Second, because it's freaking Geo who was asking me. And lastly, because he's my freaking crush. My happy pill.

"Huh?" I subconsciously blurted out. Freaking hell, Liya, get a grip of yourself.

I removed one of my earphones. Still pretending that I'm still listening to a song.

"Come again?"

"No, Nevermind." he said before shifting back his attention to Cedrick.

I shrugged and put on once again my earphones. I pressed play and syared at nothing. Pondering about his question.

Well, technically, yes. I am his friend. Friend. That word had a bitter effect to me just by thinking of it. Of course, I am your friend. I am only a friend to you.

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"But friends don't look at friends that way." Dani said after I told her what happened awhile ago. We're now at McDonald's chilling and having lunch at the same time.

"I know." I said dejectedly.

Friends don't look at friends that way.

If only, I wasn't only a friend. If only he was my Cassmate since first year. Maybe, just maybe, we had a chance.