The Staredown

The Long Talk

              So today's the day I talk to my aunt, I'm still really nervous. But I'm ready talk... I peek beyond the corner of the wall in the kitchen to see my aunt in the living room. I begin to walk forward into the living room, I slowly sit down on the couch next to my aunt. She scoots over to make room for me. As she sits there I think of how to start the conversation. Finally I say hello... My aunt doesn't say anything back, so I say it again. Finally she said " oh, so your talking to me all of a sudden?" I start to apologize and tell her that I  never should've stopped talking to her in the first place. I also tell her how I was just mad and angry. Then she turns to me and says "I get how you were feeling, I never EVER should've kept your parents from you... What I should've done in the first place instead of keeping a suitcase full of stuff about them is I should've told you. It was my fault for keeping them away from you for years, and I should've never done that. Even if your parents weren't there when you were little doesn't mean they shouldn't have been in your life at all.." I felt a lump in my throat after she said that, but I swallowed it to say... " I understand how you probably felt too. It had to be a lot of pressure on your end too, having to decide whether you should tell me about why my parents weren't here or why they couldn't come see me." My aunt began to tear up. After she wiped away her tears she said " Thanks for understanding my part, but I should've told you about them sooner, and to not tell you that they were sick and  close to pass was even more heartless then I can ever imagined. but it was really hard for me when my brother which was your father died from a sickness. I wanted to tell you so bad but I didn't know how to tell you so bad but I didn't know how to. But the fact that I got to raise you like you were my daughter and being able to see you grow and mature yourself, it's just been the light of my life. I thought that if I didn't tell you you would be happier, but I was so wrong. But I'm just so proud of the young woman you have become, and being able to forgive me for what I did it just makes me so happy that we are talking again." Once she said that I couldn't hold back my tear any longer, I burst out crying and hugged her so tight I never wanted to let go. While we were still in the hug I said " Thank you so much for raising me, and being by my side day and night to help me through it all." I came out of the hug and said in a face full of tears " I wouldn't want anyone else in the world to raise me besides such a wonderful person like you." We both started crying again. We then went in for another hug.  I don't know what I would have done if I didn't talk to her today. Now that we are more open to each other and know that we can talk anytime...
        I think this is going to be a great start of something new!! <3