Stained Glass

how long is this road?

Everything happens for a reason. That's what I have been trying to believe for the past few years. I'm still trying to believe it, but then things happen and It's hard understand why they do. It's crazy how easy it is for emotions to take over you. Follow you. Change you. But you get told to keep your head up. Keep moving. Stay positive. Put a smile on your face. Maybe find something to look forward too and you will be happier. But it's easier said than done. Because as easy as it is for emotions to never leave you, it's just as easy for them to completely tear you down and It's hard to build yourself back up again. It's a very long and bumpy road when you go down the path that I have been on. The emotions have been with me for multiple years now and became stronger when the damage was done. As they look down on me, they see me in pain and hurting. I know that they wouldn't want me to feel this way. I know that they aren't completely gone. I know that they would want me to let them go so that I can be happy again. They would say that those moments were the ones where I looked the most beautiful. It's hard to let them go because everything has changed. Literally everything. Nothing is normal anymore. You have to find a new normal. As the days go by, I want to be happier, and I know that that is what you guys would want too. I realize and accepted the fact that the only way to let that happen...is if I let you go.