From the heart mostly.

Fracture

I used to work really hard
to never love you as much as I do
because Ive known the experience
the star gets grief that comes
after you get too close and lose
Ive know the bitter taste
the collecting of pieces
of staring down at myself
and not knowing my what i see
because I used to only see you
have you ever been exhausted
trying to make yourself
something, anything
for someone else ?
~
From the beginning
I never felt prepared
I could only feel fear
mixed with longing
to let my self fall into you
get lost in you
the way I told myself
I never would again
I try way too hard to love
and each time it ends
each time it stops before I can start
each time it takes away my heart
only to have some awful end

why do we fallout
why get so close only to disconnect ?