Connection

CHAPTER ONE-Fear

*DISCLAIMER*
I DO NOT OWN STARWARS OR ANY STARWARS RIGHTS THING IS JUST FOR FUN, tell me if you enjoy xo

I always knew there was something different about myself, there was always something inside me that felt like it was burning, it felt stronger whenever I seen him, master kylo ren, the feeling was strong enough to make me feel like I was beginning to explode when I would see him even though all he was to me was a master in a mask and all he saw me as was another stormtrooper.
But today I had messed up so badly that I knew I was going to die, and I was getting brought to most likely be killed, I was caught trying to escape and leaving without command is not never allowed in the first order, I had nearly escaped I was nearly free from this evil disgusting place and now Im minutes from death, Captain phasma dragged me by the arm with a blaster to my head, I know she had wanted me to be in this situation ever since I first got here, "let's see how you die jakku scum" and then next thing I know I'm pushed into a tall dark room, not one that I'd ever seen before, then the door slams shut and it's me and kylo ren alone, he turns to me shivers creep up my spine and I can feel the sweat sticking my skin to my suit, he stood over me
"SO U DECIDED TO BETRAY THE FIRST ORDER" he screamed
I couldn't speak the air was trapped inside me I couldn't breathe
"ANSWER ME TRAITOR SCUM, YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST STAND THERE AND IGNORE ME"
I could feel my blood boiling inside me at this point I always had a short temper and not even near death or even him could make me contain it
"ANSWER ME YOU SCUM"he screamed again
I couldn't hold it in anymore I had for too many years i had nothing to lose now anyway "Oh kill me already won't you that's all you do anyway isn't it just kill kill kill no wonder I wanted to leave this place all we ever do, all anyone ever talks about is who we murdered or who were next going to murder so just do the usual and murder me!" I screamed at the top of my lungs
He took a step back almost in a hurt way and then I saw his fists clench
"Let's see you brave you are when you're dead" he said
I froze, this was it I turned my back and removed my helmet, I was not going to die wearing one of their helmets, my eyes filled with tears as I braced myself
"FACE ME YOU COWARD"
I slowly turned around and looked up at him, he didn't move for a few seconds I was staring in the eyes of his mask I wanted him to see me crumble when he killed me but he just stopped
He dropped his lightsaber
"LEAVE" he screamed
"What?"I stammered
"I SAID LEAVE GET OUT AND RETURN TO YOUR QUARTERS"
I didn't know what to think or say or feel I picked up my helmet and ran as the door opened from a flick of his fingers, what just happened and why didn't he kill me?