Connection

CHAPTER FOUR-Shower

I opened my eyes to a black ceiling, my head was pounding I was starving, I sat up and looked down and once I realised where I was I immediately froze, I was lying on Kylo rens bed, I was lying on literal killing machine master kylo rens bed, Awh fuck fuck fuck what have I done why am I here I looked up and was shook to my core
In the corner of the room meters away from where I was sitting on the bed there was a tall man standing dressed in full black with jaw length dark hair.

Who is that? What is going on? How did I wake up in kylo rens bed and where is he? A million thoughts rushed through my mind all at once

"Who are you?" I choked out

He turned around and it was like the air has been knocked out of my chest
All I could see was deep dark brown eyes they swallowed me up it felt like my insides were melting, I couldn't stop staring into them they were the most beautiful things I'd ever seen better than any fancy bed or anything in this massive expensive room, they were pure perfection I'd give any money I owned anything I had every part of me to just stare into those eyes for the rest of my life i felt whole looking into them those eyes gave me the warmest feeling in my chest I had ever felt

"What's your name?"he said

"I asked you first"

"You already know my name" he said too confidently

I was filled with pure confusion until I looked down, no it can't be
There must be some mistake
It was him
It was Kylo Ren with his long dark clothes and red lightsaber tucked into his belt
That's what's under the mask
The most beautiful thing I've ever seen
I looked at the rest of his face, plump perfectly shaped rose coloured lips, sharp cheeks bones and jawline, thick hair darker than the night waved around his face and those eyes

"Your.... your kylo ren" I questioned still not able to believe it

"And you are" he said ignoring my question

"FN2946" I said slowly

"I see, now give me on reason why I shouldn't murder you right now FN2946"

Well straight to the point
I remained silent what Answer could I seriously give him I had committed treason twice in two days he has every reason to kill me

He moved closer towards me

"Tell me why when I've spared your life before and you've failed me why should I not this time"

Then I remembered why I did all this

"Why didn't you before" I said looking up into his eyes

He froze
Then anger built in his face

"BECAUSE I HAVE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO THEN TO BE KILLING AND CHASING AFTER UNIMPORTANT WORTHLESS AND REPLACEABLE STORMTROOPERS LIKE YOU" he shouted in my face, he took out his lightsaber and it lit up before me

Oh no what have I done what have I done why did I do this why was I drawn back to him why did I need to know why he saved me so bad this is all my fault

He raised the lightsaber over his head and swung straight for my skull
I held my breath and shut my eyes
I heard it fly towards my face and then......

It stopped I waited a few seconds then turned my head and looked up the lightsaber was inches from my hair and there he was holding it above me, furiously

I looked deep in his eyes and he swallowed, turned around and swung at a desk across from his bed slicing it in half
He screamed and let his lightsaber fall to the ground

A couple of seconds passed and I couldn't even process what just happened everything felt so blurry like a dream

"Go shower " he said still facing the wall

"What?" I choked out not even being able to understand or take in what was happening

"I SAID GO SHOWER" he screamed

I quickly shot up and ran into the bathroom and slammed the door behind me
I heard punches, his Lightsaber and continues screams happening on the other side of the wall, I leaned against the door and sunk to the floor until I was lying on the tiles shaking with tears brimming in my eyes

"What... what just happened" I whispered to myself

I began sobbing into my hands out of fear and confusion, what is going on he was so much closer there but still didn't is this some new form of torture he's coming up with, make them think there safe and then keep getting closer to murdering them.

I got myself in this mess why did I have to try get back to him I wouldn't be in this situation if I had of just left it but no I had to come back to him

I got up and began undressing, I knew if I didn't get in the shower quickly he'd most likely come in and scream at me for not following his commands.

I took off all my clothes , stepped into the shower, turned it on and let the hot water pour all over me.

I sat down on the hot wet tiles and began crying again into my arms wishing I never came back, but knowing deep down I would never of been able not to come back to him something drew me in I had to come back.

After about ten minutes of sobbing and thinking I got out of the shower, wrapped a towel around myself and sat on the ground.

I wasn't going to go out because he had not commanded me too yet and I didn't want to make him more angry so I sat there and surely enough the memory's of his eyes starting seeping back into my mind

His eyes Awh even the thought made me feel like I was melting and his lips I just wanted him to get closer to me
What am I saying
This is kylo ren I'm talking about
Don't lie to yourself your more than attracted to him, your sitting here craving him

Then suddenly there was a knock at the door