anime male x male reader

why ? ( red feathers )

Trigger warning ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Suicidal

Heros are suppose to save people

But

I don't feel saved my saving was death and he toke it away from me
I gave up on having a good life
Why?
Why did he had to save me when I was so close to ending this suffering
Over the years depression started to win
My thoughts got darker and darker
I could have been happier dieing

I JUST DON'T WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY !
I for once want to be happy
I want to feel love
I don't want a therapist
I want the love of my mother , my father
And not be the black sheep of the family
I don't want to be the adopted one
Why did he had to save me ?
Just one second it all it toke for me to die
But no he had to save me
Why hawks ? Just WHY?

Y/n pov

I cried and screamed
I'm tired
Everything hurts
I don't want to run away from my problems
But
Just why do I had to be saved by him
Hawks

A few minutes later

" Hey I'm sorry Dabi " I said to him
" You are sorry , that doesn't help the fact that you tried to kill yourself
Y/n" Dabi said back kinda annoyed but still concern
" I know but guess who saves me " I said kinda sad that I couldn't kill myself ^_^
" Alright who saving you "he said not really caring
"

Pro hero hawks himself , yay"I said bored
"Really hawks ?" He said not really trusting you
" Yes really " I said back ready to leave
" Huh " he only did that sound watching me pack my things
" Well see you later , I need to talk to crusty lips later"I said walking out the door

Few minutes later
No one's pov

Y/n walk to his house from a store he was in with bags is his hands while he walked to his house a bird man followed him from up high ' does he really think I'm that stupid ' y/n thought know that hawks was following him but he didn't really care so when to the path to go home

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This will be having a lots of parts and I don't know how to finish this
Should it be sad or not
Should the reader kill themselves or not 😐 They will kill themselves