anime male x male reader

one last time ( red feathers )

Trigger warning ⚠️⚠️

Suicidal 💥💥💥💥

Life has been a joke for me since I don't really care about my life
I in fact have no reason to be alive
Yeah I know what your thinking y/n what got you so messed up
Well nothing , nothing at all
Im just vibing , smoking a blunt and drinking alcohol

' what will happen if take my life '

' I'll be death of course '

' but what will my family and friends think '

' I mean it's not going to be their fault '

' because I have nothing to be depress '

' why TF do I have to live with this ?'

' why does anyone have to live with this '

' mantal illness it's not a joke '

' but your life is '

' what a horrible joke you made there depression '

' well why do I keep talking to myself '

' I should probably jump '

I got close to the edge my eyes closed and let myself fall ,

'this feeling again , it feels wonderful '

' I don't want it to end its so peaceful '

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I feel the air in my face
As I  got close to the floor
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Once again I was stop by no other then hawks
Last time we saw each other I was drunk
And have a rope

Flashback :

" No it's not kid!! It's not good for you to drink this and why did you buy this shit !!" He sounds more mad and his yelling hurts my head
" Hey s~hut ~up my hea~d hurts~ " I said get tired because of the alcohol
With that I felt a sleep , I felt a blanket being put on me and the other side of the couch sink "please take care of your self kid , people care for you "

End of flashback -

"Let go of me hawks " I said in a calm but still mad tone
" No you need to stop doing this , people care for you , what will happen when your gone huh ? " He said mad that I didn't care for my life
" Nothing they will go about their day as the should " I said in a boring tone
" No they wouldn't !, What do you think will happen to me when you're gone ?!" He said in a sad tone
" I don't know and still don't care ,now let go " I said a bit mad that I'm still in his arms
" No I don't want to let go !" He said still sad
" Mr,hawks I don't know you at all , let me go !" I'm mad that doesn't lit go
" O-ok " he lets go and sits down in the roof he landed on
" Mr. hawks please stop following me , you can't always save someone " I said to him in a calm tone  and once again I jumped but this time with more speed hawks was not following me because he was processing what just happened when he got what happened he jumped and flat his wings tiring to get more speed I was close to the ground
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* Blood
Blood✨
Everywhere
Hawks was to late now I'm die
To bad for the fastest hero

The person he cared about die because he wasn't fast enough

" No no no no no no !! This in not real ! No no no no NO ! I wasn't fast enough " hawks keep repeating this words other and other again

You got to hold me one last time
Dear old friend of mine

( Y/n and keigo were childhood friends but when hawks was taken things change for both )

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That was it I have nothing so I ended there ✨