Trans!Nagito Komaeda x Hajime Hinata Oneshots

Finding out (Angst/fluff)

(Third Person Limited: Nagito Komaeda)

"Let's go to the pool!" Mioda joyfully shouted one morning.

It was a horrendous idea. Komaeda dreaded the thought of going.

But how could he refuse? It would be rude to say no.

So he smiled and agreed while thinking of what to do. What if he didn't swim? Or wore his binder while swimming? No, that wouldn't work. It would be too visible. Oh god, what if they found out?

What if Hinata found out?

He almost gagged at the thought of his favorite person knowing he was so weak. Knowing he wasn't really who he said he was. What if Hinata broke up with him? What if he hated him? What if he was humiliated in front of everyone?

He felt his breathing grow more intense. His eyes started hurting and he felt like throwing up. He decided to run to the bathroom.

"Ah, sorry everyone! I'll be back soon."

He locked the door behind him, sliding down the wall into a crumpled heap on the tile floor. He did nothing to stop himself from feeling this way, and that made him feel even worse. His chest ached and he felt tears run down his face.

What if they all hate me? What if they kick me out? What if they make me wear skirts and bikinis? What if they send me away? What if they kill me? God, I don't even think I would mind. I deserve to die anyway...

His thoughts raced and he started violently coughing. His throat went raw from the force of his crying. And he knew he was overreacting. Nothing had even happened. But he was scared. He was just really scared.

(Third Person Omniscient)

Eventually he pulled himself together enough to leave the bathroom. He greeted Hinata and squeezed his hand tightly, making the shorter boy laugh.

"What, are you nervous about going swimming or something?"

Komaeda looked away, and Hinata saw a flash of panic in his eyes.

"Perhaps."

"It'll be fine, Ko! You know how to swim, right?"

He nodded, but didn't look any less concerned. Hinata didn't know that wasn't the problem. Komaeda held his hand even tighter. After all, this might be the last time he could even do that.

"Is it about swimsuits? I'll help you change if you need me. Or do you just not like water?"

He shook his head after each question Hinata asked. In the end, he decided on a plan. He would just wear his normal clothes and not go swimming. It was simple, but it would work.

The pool wasn't far, so everyone was able to walk there together. He gripped Hinata's arm, holding onto him for dear life. Hinata gave him a peck on the cheek, making him blush. He couldn't bear to lose this. He loved Hinata too much. 

When they arrived at the pool, almost everyone immediately jumped into the water. Well, Tsumiki sort of shimmied her way in, and a few people stayed out of the pool as well. Togami, Saionji, and Tanaka made their way to some chairs, making themselves comfortable. Komaeda did the same and peacefully watched his friends swim around and have fun. He wished he could join in, but it was too risky. He could be found out. 

Around half an hour later, Hinata emerged from the pool to ask if he was sure he didn't want to swim. He nodded. Hinata shrugged and sat down beside him.

"Ko?"

"Mhm?"

"Could I please braid your hair?"