Senses Unleashed

Chapter Seven: Sadness is Madness

*Jonathan*

I looked down at her sleeping figure. I was finally beside her again. It felt so surreal to see her there. Even before she had entered my room. Her thoughts had made me want to laugh so hard.

She still  was thinking like a small kid. Despite her age.I brushed a strand of hair away from her now sleeping face.

I knew I had to take her back to her own dorm but I hadn't made a move as to it yet.

I didn't realise I  had put so much sense power in the kiss that it would make her fall in such a deep sleep.

Maybe it was better this way. I didn't want her half drugged like the others.Of course I could have knocked her out with a simple touch.Just like everybody else.I knew I had went too far by kissing her.But I couldn't help it when she was standing this close to me. With her big gray-brown eyes pleading. Her wild raven black curls bouncing at every move she made.And those perfectly luscious lips of hers always begging to be kissed.

Oh how much I had truely missed her.

I tried to clear my thoughts and focused once again on everybody else.The voices inside my head were always there. Tormenting me. But now,with practised ease I reached to Artemis thoughts on the other side of the campus. Most people couldn't control their thoughts nor their feelings. And for someone to block me from his/her thoughts would be as easy as if blocking away their feelings. Almost nobody could do that. Almost.

My Amy was the same way with other people's feelings. She was
as effective as I was at hearing thoughts. That had been one of the first things that had made me realise she propably was one of the very few people who could understand me...But her and me went back a long long way...for totally different reasons.

I hated her. I loved her.
I onced loved her that much that I worshiped her and carried out her every wish. Even before she could breathe it out loud.

Madame Sophie's words unceremoniously flashed across my mind. "You can't go back in time Jonathan.The things you sacrificed.You might never get them back. Once you erase her memories there is no going back"
I had laughed hard at her. Almost mockingly. She had no idea what I had given up already.
How many times I had had to erase her memories. How many times I had tried to win her over, again and again and again.And how many times I had failed and suceeded at doing it.But we all had our wounds to bare and our own battles to give...right?

I had told her without the humour then. "I am not mad. Sophia. I just do what needs to be done for her protection."

She had narrowed her mundane eyes on me as if she didn't believe a single word I had said.

"My boy,you propably did that in the past..but right now?You are harming her. You don't want what's best for her.YOU are standing up for the throne. You don't want it to be with her anymore."

Ah. For someone even without the benefit of an overgrown brain and extra senses to much it with, she was as always right to the quick.

A silent shudder escaped my body. She might have guessed that. Because I had spoken of it to nobody,but she had no idea what I had suffered. I wasn't going to let the monster inside of her rule the whole realm of Specialists.

"You are right. I am going to kill her in the end.If it is the last thing I will have to do."
When I said that I hadn't been looking at her in the eye.
I hadn't even wanted to come in terms with the idea in the first place.

Now back in the present,I had to push aside all my memories and feelings for her and get back to schedule.

After a moment .From the incoherent thoughts she made...I realised Artemis was asleep.
So me entering the room was going to be propably an easy task I sighed with relief. I wouldn't have to worry about erasing her memory too.

I sighed again. I suddenly felt very exhausted.

I turned to take another look on Amy's beautifull spotless face. Her rosy cheeks and closed eyelids made her appear younger; defenceless even; just like a child.
She was anything but that.
But with almost every crucial memory taken away from her she didn't remember. She had no idea of what she was capable of.

The phone on my back pocket buzzed to life. I reached for it and run one finger over the screen to unlock the incoming call from Kate.

"Hey,muffin."she exclaimed half sweetly half in fake horror.
I actually smiled for once.
"Now that's priceless. Here is something Kate Arrow isn't saying with grace.That's so not your style,sugar. And if it makes you want to gag this much then why say it in the first place?"
Kate chuckled.
"You know what? You are no fun mr Know-it-all! Aaat least I tried. You can gimme that much right?"
"Right" I mimicked her silly voice.
"Well I will be waiting on the cafeteria of my dorm. Please don't stand me up again."
The implied or else made me laugh.
"Or else what?" I provoked her.
"Or else fireballs your ass. You and your huge Ego,Jonathan. Honestly."She sighed.

"Oh but I am an Ego,dear.Why not stand up to my name ?"

She laughed at my lame excuse.
"Just be there." She said sounding exhausted herself.Then she clicked off.

I threw my phone across the bed and scooped sweet Amy on my arms. There is no way I was going to be late.

Annarose so owed me for all this.
I was having my day off now.

Amy felt so much lighter than before. Lighter than all the other times I had held her in the past this close to me. I really took a look at her face then only to realise that despite her rosy cheeks she bared huge black circles under her big childish eyes.Her cheecks were hollower, also.
Even the sides of her jawlines were more prominent than before.

Why? My heart skipped a beat.
I had been keeping track of her for months on end. How had I missed that?Why hadn't anyone commented on her health before?So that through their thoughts I could know at least!

I felt powerless. As I held her in my arms. Powerless to help her.
Powerless to also take away from her what I thought as mine.

No,she really isn't.I reminded myself. I sighed once again. Well nothing I could do about it right now...so.

I exited my room and after half an hour I was entering hers with her frail body relaxing limplessly on my arms.

I placed her gently on the bed.
I turned to look at the sleeping figure of her best friend who was actually snoring.

I smiled and turned back to Amy.
I took off her shoes and jacket and raised the covers of her bed to help her in it. Then I rolled down the curtains of the window above her head. I took another look at Artemis' sleeping figure,before I reached to place a kiss on Amy's forehead.

I was beyond sorry.
For everything. But I couldn't say that. I had to go.

I gulped soundlessly the knot on my throat and left as soundlessly as I had entered.

Besides,I reminded grimmly to myself...she soon would be involved. And this time I wouldn't be able to protect her from her own memories anymore.

I reached across campus to his thoughts but as always I got blocked once again. Damn it.
I had to figure out a way around it and fast. Otherwise, I'd be as effective around Amy as oil was around fire...

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