Vinnie Hacker Imagines

Live (NS)✨

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~Vinnies pov~

Life is getting to hard for me. It's literally hard. Nothing has been helping me. So I decided that imma take my life but first I have to say my goodbyes. I decided I was gonna go live.

"Hey guys. I'm not gonna be on long. I- "

I seen y/n and all my friends join the live.

"I would take your last screen record of me. Take a last good look at me for awhile. I wanted to say I love you guys and Im sorry"

I ended the live.

~Y/n's pov~

Vinnie was live. We had plans to hangout tonight but he said he was busy. So I joined to see what "busy" was.

"I would take your last screen record of me. Take a last good look at me for awhile. I wanted to say I love you guys and I'm sorry."

He ended the live and it got me thinking. No. No. I grabbed my car keys and drove as fast as I could to his house.

~Vinnies pov~

I grabbed the pills bottles in my medicine cabinet and grabbed the razor blades in the drawer. I went downstairs and grabbed the alcohol from the cabinet in the kitchen and made my back upstairs. My body was shaking and of course I had second thoughts. Who wouldn't? 1 cut = 1 pill. I started my first cut on my forearm. I seen blood soon come out after the first cut. Grabbed the bottle and grabbed a pill.

~y/n's pov~

I was almost to Vinnies house. 2 blocks away. I was preparing myself to what I'm about to see. I started crying. Thinking of all the bad things that could be happening right now. It made me cry even more. I pulled into the driveway and ran into his house.

~Vinnies pov~

5 cuts. 5 pills. I started making my 6th one but heard someone. Y/n! I didn't want her to see me like this. I tried scooting over to the door but I was to weak. I was losing blood. I heard running up the stairs. I was locked the door. Finally. I decided to make more cuts. Y/n- was banging on the door. "Lemme in!!" 7.8.9. One more but this one vertically. I started at my wrist but everything started getting blurry and I was dizzy. Then soon it went black.

I woke up in the hospital. Y/n was sitting in the chair watching tv. "Hey" she looked at me and got up and went to me and grabbed my hand. "Hey" she was tearing up. "Why'd you take me here." "I didn't want to lose you and there's many other people that wouldn't want that either." She said worried. "I didn't want to be saved. Everyone around me has caused me pain. Nothing is helping me. Not my meds, not therapy, not even you. I feel alone y/n." "Well maybe-" I cut her off "no, I don't want anyone to be around me." She gets up and nods her head and grabs her bag. "I'm sorry." She says and walks out the door. I fucked up. I spent the night thinking about what I said and I didn't mean it. I was just mad. I started calling her and texting, leaving voicemails, and she didn't answer none of them. I really did fuck up. I had Josh drop my car off cause I was getting out in a few days.

~few days pass~

I can finally go home now but I have to start going to therapy and going to support groups. The first thing I did was drive to y/n's house. I knocked on the door and she answered. "Hey!" I said and she was gonna slam the door on my face but I put my foot in front of the door. "What Vinnie? You made it perfectly clear that you don't want no one to be around you." She said she was cleaning so she wasn't really looking at me. "Yea, I know and I'm sorry I didn't mean. I was just mad because I wanted the pain to stop and you stopped me from doing that. I didn't mean anything I said. And I promise you I want you in my life more than anyone else because I love you." She turned around and she looked at me for a second and then ran to me and hugged me. "I thought I lost you." I could hear her voice cracking. "I never wanna lose you again." I whispered "and you won't" she said pulling out of the hug and looking into my eyes. "I love you too"