Don't Ask Why

•HEY AT FIRST SMOKE•

Melissa Pov
The usual am in an isolated place far from the noise, judgmental eyes, whispers- basically People!!!

You should know by now I hate People😒
this was my heaven, seating up here was the best feeling ever

Yunno the Music, Drink, food, 🚬
Keeps me going
Fuck it you won't like the kind of music I listen to 😒
Not your regular happy tones

My circle now is extremely small, it's not even a circle anymore. it's a dot .

Not a joke, not funny😕

I could skip school, I did that the first months Melvin died, then I was reported to my parents, now that option is impossible

Nosy teachers😒

Am high on my energy right now, it seems like no one and nothing really mattered to me

Well they don't
Just like I didn't matter to any of them😞

Lonely and a quiet place, today am In the basketball court

They was no game or practice, no one was going to come down here

I didn't have class, till the next period

My best feeling!

I just sat on one of the chairs in the court, my headset plug in, and I was looking into space

What am I thinking! Absolutely nothing, my damn mind is free like a balloon, don't get bored of me, life is boring

Finesse, Die Alone caught me deep never like before, since all I have gone through just reflected to his lyrics

...Minutes passed, I started to hear sniffs

That has to be loud, cause I can hear it even with the musics playing
And is really disturbing my peace😒

I turned to look for who it was was, turning my head around

Not like I was going to stop the person, just wanted to see who was broken like I was

I couldn't see anybody

I don't care who the person is, cry it out, it helps

The sniffs continued

Like they say "is okay not to be okay,
but is not okay to keep disturbing me!!!"
You better find another person to disturb😒

I increased the volume of my headphone and Hummed to the music playing

1:05PM

I should better be going back to class now

My Free time is over, got all my shit together, took off my headphone, put in the rest of the fries in my bag, wore my 424 baseball cap, got out my perfume and spray like I should just bath it

Didn't want to smell like i had a smoke, next was a twenty minutes biology test, gosh am really not ready for that

Not like I enjoyed seating in the class and trying remembering what enzymes could do and not do, have tried the option of skipping tests, worst you get to write the test all alone, with the teacher looking and smiling at you every seconds go by, you get reported to your parents you missed a test for no reasonable reason

So the latter is better

I stood up from the chair, carried my bag, leaving the play area to class, I walked passed the chairs, heading almost very quickly for the exit door