Ashley's POV
I get to go home today. I don't know how I should feel, so I'm not really feeling anything. I have been stuck in this depressing hospital for 3 weeks. My mom, Griffin, and Anthony have been alternating days to stay with me. When my mom found out what happened, she was devastated. I felt terrible. She assured me it wasn't my fault, but I know it was.
I am so selfish. I hate myself for everything I have done. Everyone thinks that I'm magically going to get better. I'm not. Ana is still screaming at me every day, reminding me I'm not good enough. I have been on the psych floor of the hospital the last two weeks, and have been having therapy sessions twice daily.
It's so hard.
My mom had to go back to Kentucky for work, so Anthony will be the one bringing me home. Actually, we aren't going back to Kentucky right away; the rest of our friends came back to LA, where the hospital I'm staying at is, and we are going to spend tomorrow together since Playlist didn't exactly go as planned.
I will try my best to enjoy myself.
Oh, and did I forget to mention that I still have this disgusting, calorie feeding, obesity causing tube sticking through my nose and down my throat into my stomach? Dr. Great gave me an ultimatum; either keep the NG tube until I show vast improvement or live in one of those facilities where they watch you 24/7 until I show vast improvement. I'll admit, four months ago I probably would have chosen the latter, but I have Anthony now. And Mads. And Griffin. And Jaden. I have friends now, and I can't live in one of those facilities.
Anthony's POV
"Ready, Ashley? The nurse is here." I feel terrible saying that this has been hard for me, when Ashley is the one going through the hard stuff, but it has been so difficult. I am doing my best to be there for her, but I feel like my best isn't enough. I just want her to be okay.
"Yeah, I am so ready to get out of this place." I saw a soft smile cover her face, and I knew it was to please me. I want her to be genuinely happy.
The doctor went over cleaning, feeding, and everything I need to know about the NG tube since I'll be taking care of her when her moms at work. I couldn't help but break down in tears when the nurse was telling me all I needed to know. How could I not?
"Okay, so we will have today to ourselves for you to rest or whatever you want to do, and tomorrow maybe we could do something with all of our friends?" I offered to Ashley.
"Yeah, sounds good." She agreed, and didn't sound unhappy. But she didn't sound happy either.
Okay y'all, I know this was insanely short but I wanted to put something out there as a way to tell y'all I WILL BE UPDATING!!
Happy thanksgiving ❤️
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anorexia//an anthony reeves fanfic
Fanfiction17 year old Ashley Noah has had no background of any mental illnesses and has always been a generally happy person. However, she has just begun to gain popularity all over social media. She suddenly becomes very conscious of her weight and begins to...
