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ʀᴇǫᴜᴇsᴛ ʙʏ: BabyishLovato  ᴛʜᴀɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜఌ

𝐘/𝐍 𝐏𝗼𝐯

Up late again as always
My thoughts always get to me
Sometimes there not as bad but days like this makes me feel like I wanna die

I try and try but it gets hard
I've only self-harmed once in my life and I'm gonna be brutally honest
It relieved all my pain

I know that's not the answer and that's why I didn't do it again but God
Everything has been testing me to my limit
I'm just tired

They say God puts you through trials
I don't wanna go through the trials anymore
I just wanna end me

I promised myself I wouldn't do it again but fuck it I don't care anymore

I grab the broken razor from my bathroom and just slid down the door and cried
Not because I was gonna self-harm
Because I'm tired
I don't wanna do this anymore

I slowly bring the razor to my wrist and cut away my pain

~ɴᴇxᴛ ᴅᴀʏ~

I wake up the next day on the bathroom floor
I must have fallen asleep while crying

I checked my phone and it was pretty early but I might as well start my day off

𝐃𝐞𝗺𝐢'𝐬 𝐏𝗼𝐯

I wake up to the noises coming from my kitchen
I slowly go down the stairs tired as hell knowing that it's just my daughter

" 𝐇𝐞𝐲 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲 "

" 𝐎𝐡 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐭, 𝐲𝗼𝐮 𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝗺𝐞, 𝐠𝗼𝗼𝐝 𝗺𝗼𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 "

" 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝗼𝐮 𝐝𝗼𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐮𝐩 𝐬𝗼 𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐲? "

" 𝐈 𝐝𝗼𝐧'𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝗼𝐰 𝐈 𝐰𝗼𝐤𝐞 𝐮𝐩 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝗼𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐠𝗼 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝗼
𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐩 "

" 𝐘𝗼𝐮 𝐜𝗼𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐠𝗼 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝗼 𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐩? 𝐘𝗼𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐛𝗼𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐰𝐡𝗼 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐢𝐧 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐬𝐢𝐱 𝐩𝗺? "

" 𝐇𝐚 𝐇𝐚 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐲 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈'𝗺 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝗼𝐮𝐬 "

" 𝐈 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝗼𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝗼 𝗺𝐞 "

" 𝐖𝐡𝐲? "

" 𝐈 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝗼𝐮, 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝗼𝐰 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐛𝗼𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝗼𝐮 "

She mumbled something but I couldn't quite figure out what she said

𝐘/𝐍 𝐏𝗼𝐯

" 𝐘𝗼𝐮 𝗼𝐛𝐯𝐢𝗼𝐮𝐬𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝗼𝐧'𝐭 "

I mumbled

" 𝐇𝐮𝐡? "

" 𝐍𝗼𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 "

There was an awkward silence

" 𝐒𝗼𝗼 𝐮𝗺 𝐲𝗼𝐮 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐞𝐠𝐠𝐬? "