𝐂𝐀𝐍'𝐓 𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔 , choen

09. narrative

the sounds of a foreign knock was enough to snap noen out of his depressive episode. realizing that it was most likely chase at the door, he hurriedly washed the tears off his face.

he opened the door to see the familiar dark haired boy in front of him,"oh shit you-- are you okay?" chase spoke.

noen shook his head in response. mostly due to the fact that if he were to say anything he'd break down again. then he was quickly enveloped in chase's arms.

"it'll get better, i promise." he spoke up again suddenly.

"doesn't feel like it." noen replied with a halfhearted chuckle as he pulled away from chase's embrace.

"come on don't say that, let's do something fun. distract yourself for a while."

"like what?"

chase reached over to the tv remote. "like.. watching netflix until we pass out."

"you read my mind." noen laughed, feeling some sort of happiness for the first time that night.

-

the pitch black sky outside told noen that now wasn't the time to be awake. the tv was still on, so he figured that some time during the night he had just knocked out.

"chase?" noen called out softly, "chase i know you're awake."

"was it that obvious?" chase's voice spoke from the other side of the sofa.

"i mean, yeah that looks like a pretty uncomfortable position to sleep in." noen chuckled, now realizing how tense the atmosphere was.

"so, why are you up?" chase asked.

"i don't know. it's just that, what if i never find love? i mean, i really thought she was the one.. you know? and now i'm back to being lonely." noen's smile slowly turned into a frown after he spoke.

"well you're not lonely.. i'm right here." chase reassured him, moving closer.

"you know what i mean dummy." he rolled his eyes playfully.

then it felt like they were back in the kitchen that day, bodies awkwardly close and cheeks all flushed. car lights had flashed by occasionally letting them look into each other's eyes. neither could back out now, they were way too close to each other. not to mention the dead silence of the apartment making everything ten times worse.

now the only difference was that technically noen was no longer in a relationship and there was no sassy 16 year old spying on them *cough* charli *cough*. that should've made things easier but it didn't. it fucking didn't.

somehow they gave into each other though. their lips softy colliding with each other, noen tasted of the cookies they had ate together earlier. their hands slowly moved from their original places on the sofa on to each other's faces, wanting more and more.

then before chase knew it, his hands were now messing with the other's hair, his eyes were fluttered shut, and he was enjoying this way more than any person in his position should. yeah, he could definitely do this forever.

and that's what scared him. the thought that all this was to noen was just some affection to fill the hole in his heart after a harsh breakup, and to chase it was months of built up passion and regret.

it had felt like hours they had stayed like that. and it was.. judging by the now creeping sunrise. they had both took notice of it as they mutually pulled away from each other. now that the sky was brighter they could see their blown pupils and swollen lips clearly. then, they were waiting for one to speak up.

chase had took the opportunity to further examine the window behind noen, huh the sun wasn't there before.., he thought.

"um, can we just forget that happened?..." noen had finally spoke, his sudden voice making chase jump. "...i don't know, it's just that--"

"--yeah i know, you just.. were vulnerable and stuff. i know, and i'm sorry." chase rushed.

"you have nothing to be sorry for." noen internally smiled thinking about the previous events, "let's just, never speak of it. okay?"

"that sounds good, we were asleep and nothing happened." chase said.

"see? now i'm going back to sleep.. it's way too early right now." noen laid back down and let himself doze off.

-AUTHOR SPEAKS
hehe they finally kissed :))