Things I wish I could say out loud

Skatter brain

I still miss you
And it's honestly really annoying
I feel myself getting over it but I still miss you
I don't know why

I want you to be happy my love
I have this over whelming fear something's wrong with you, you're not doing well.
Please be alright
I need you to be alright
It makes it easier to not have you if I know you're okay
(Feel free to miss me and it's okay if it hurts you too but other than my absence you have to be okay)

I wonder if you think of me
Do you pass my house and remember me?
Do you lay in bed at night and remember when I laid with you?
Can you still feel my arms wrapped around you like they used to?
Do you still feel my kiss?
Can you still see my face in your head?
I can
And god damn it my love I miss you
Why did you have to be so cold?
Why is this the path you chose for us?
I should hate you
I wish I hated you
Hate may be easier than this

Pain
How would you feel if you knew you caused my pain?
Would you hurt too?
I
Fucking
Miss
You

My love, do you see our story as I do?
That's the real question isn't it?
Are we writing our chapters the same way?
If you read mine would you know it was you, or would you imagine a stranger?

If you could see inside my brain would you recognize the person you created inside it?

Would you be proud of him?

If you're the person I loved at all? I promise you you wouldn't.
Maybe I should have let you read my chapter that contained you, I let you read all the others, maybe I wanted to protect you from yourself.

I'm sorry
I just miss you