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revival

Today I truly realise
What a colossal blunder my life is

Today I truly believe
There is no end to how messed up it gets

Today I truly am scared
Of what I might do to myself

I'm tired and lonely
I feel worthless and dull
I've messed it up wholly
Nothing to conceal what I've done

Today is one of those days
That I want to give up on life

Today is when I can't
Look myself in the eyes

Today just feels like
Maybe I could've been stronger

I analyse and judge
Recreate that day in my head
Thinking of what I could've done instead
Thinking of how I could get out with no regrets

Today all is remembered
The mistakes, the pain and grief

Today all is surrendered
My thoughts, my dreams and happiness

Today all is forgiven
Those lies, those secrets and gaps in my story

I react and imitate
Movements they made
I shudder at my own state
Remorse lost all it's power

Today I feel like
I can change my life for the better

Today I feel like
Life's just a long love letter

Today I feel like
Revival is all that matters