What's life without some risk? (Atsuhina Mafia AU)

Letter from sho's lover?

Atsumu's pov

kageyama wants me to kill the one hinata loves so he could have hinata to himself.........for now i should act like a good bodyguard and earn kageyama's trust but the thing that bothers me is that person hinata loves. who exactly is this guy? probably it's no one but kageyama's imagination.

I entered hinata's room with my i'm-your-bodyguard attitude but once i witnessed him trying to jump off of the window my body just sprinted towards him in attempt to pull him in.

i successfully pulled him in and before i knew it i was panting like crazy while hinata gave me a 'really dude?' look.

"did you seriously try to commit suicide just now?!?! you know how many things i want to do with you in the future?!"  i said it with a god like speed. i could beat any rapper if i rap man.

"um atsumu? who said i was trying to commit suicide? does it look like that? i was just planning how to escape next through the window" he said and gave a little smile. but we are on the 20th floor!

"why do you wanna escape this place so badly it's not like kageyama treats you badly or anything sho" i said but caught myself wondering why he's acting like this. he forgot all about us and stays with kageyama 24/7.

"wait did you just call me sho-? um anyways you really seem like a nice person and my heart screams 'you can trust him' whenever i see you.....so can i really trust and tell you everything?" his voice seemed rather shaky and all i did was place my hand on his shoulder.

"mr hinata your secrets will be safe with me so pls trust me a little please. you gave me this job how could i betray you?" i said as my hand went from his shoulder to his hair to ruffle it. it's still fluffy.

"atsumu i-i actually love someone else and they mean the world to me! i just wanna find them and be with them again. i don't want kageyama. I'm running away everytime to find him please i beg you! help me find the guy i love. you're the only one i could trust now" he said and kneeled down infront of me.

His every single word felt like an arrow to the love i stored for him all these years. all my dreams crumbled infront of me. i guess i was the one thinking about him while he was dreaming about some random guy? hahahahaha awesome......just awesome.

what should i do now? should i give up and return to the mafia world? or.....maybe kageyama wants me to kill the guy hinata loves right? if i do that then i might have a chance...wait no why do i sound like a yandere now...ofc i won't kill the one hinata loves but what if i do it? will hinata come back to me?

i shook my head trying to get out all the negative thoughts but unfortunately it didn't work as i thought it would.

"w-what's his name?" i asked and looked straight at his eyes for an honest answer.

"his name ends with 'A' " hinata said which made me confused  as hell. what does he mean by 'A' wait........my name ends with 'A' too........Atsumu Miy'A'. maybe i still have a chance!?

"is it me?!" i blurted it out like it was nothing but i wasn't ready to see his reaction.

"pardon?" his face turned into a 'are you serious' one. so i guess it isn't me then. hahah life's bit*h.

"nothing... go on" i said and kept my head down atleast i need to know who this guy is right....

"i remember everything about him except his face and name....would you believe that?" he asked with tears in his eyes. wait he gotta be kidding me.

"i think this person is a imaginary person you're dreaming about mr.hinata. you couldn't possibly remember everything other than the persons name and face" i said but regretted it later when his face turned a little sad.

"yeah i know you wouldn't believe me.....but please hear me out first" he said and i told him to continue.

"he was a volleyball player too i always admired him from a distance. i was crazy about him but in fear of kageyama i didn't try to reach him or confess to him but suddenly one day he confessed to me i was the happiest person on the earth but kageyama interrupted it so i had to say no to him" hinata's voice lowered a little at the end.

wait why does this sound exactly like the scene that happened to us? could the guy actually be me? if so....then hinata's mine hmm this is getting interesting.

"i was so done with my self for turning him down i cried for hours. i finally gathered up my courage and wrote him a letter saying i was sorry for rejecting him and i asked him on a date" hinata's voice told me that he was happy but it contained just the saddness his face showed.

Im 99℅ sure that the person is me now. all i have to do is get rid of kageyama but why didn't i get hinata's letter?

"oh you posted the letter and it didn't reach him huh? i feel bad for you but i swear he loves you with his whole heart" i said feeling glad as hell inside.

"huh? who said the letter didn't reach him? it reached him and he sent me a letter back" hinata's face gained a smile while my smile turned into a frown so......that guy isnt me?

"let me show you the letter he wrote for me" he got up and went to search the letter while my heart was aching like hell.

The smile he had when he talked about that guy was so pure woah they even passed love letters? i totally feel like a passerby now......

A love letter from hinata's lover?