I'm suffocating

Chapter 21

                                 Tims PoV

I awoke to a bright light blinding me. I groaned as I tried to stretch but a small weight on my chest was stopping me.

Looking down I realised that my brother had fallen asleep in my arm. And I smiled gently.

A nurse had come in to check on him earlier and I was thankful to know that he was okay.
The visit from our sister earlier had also helped him,although she had been mad at me when i sent her home or get some rest.

Wade had tried to visit as well but I refused to see him, deep down I knew this wasn't his fault but I had to blame someone and of course that someone couldn't be me.

I could see my brothers chest rising slowly and I had never been so thankful to hear Somone breath.

I ran my thumb on his cheek gently,frowning at the bruise. It looked better than it did before but still I don't think I could ever forgive wade for this one.

I pushed the thoughts of other people out of my head and focused on my brother.

Frowning slightly,I bent my head down and placed a gentle kiss on his nose causing him to squirm slightly but resume sleeping.

I had felt ashamed that it had taken my younger brother to almost die,for me to show him how much i cared.

My thoughts were once again halted as he stirred slightly.

When he finally opened his eyes,he tried to clear his throat "can I have water?" He asked in a croaky voice.

I immediately nodded,carefully push ring him down on the bed,and got up to the small table to pour him some water.

I bit my lip as his hand stayed clinging into my shirt sleeve. He must have been fucked up bad because he's normally never this clingy.

"Here," I helped him sit up and pushed the small plastic cup to his lips.

Once he had finished he cleared his throat "thanks," his voice sounded a lot better now.

Once I had settled back next to him I rested my back in the headboard and sighed.

"Do you know when I can get out of here?" He asked me,pleading for an early date

I nodded. I had talked to The nurse and she  had told me all about what to do at home and to keep him away from sharp things.

He was on "suicide watch" what a fucking joke

"The end of the week," I answered him.

"Oh," he was disappointed,I could tell

"Have you spoken To wade since...well you know?"

His question took me off guard "why would you wanna speak to him?"

He looked confused "why wouldn't I?"

I gestured to his face and he understood.

"Oh,I guess I kind of did piss him off a bit,"

"Still,didn't give him a right to hit ya," I grumbled, as far as I was concerned the only person who could hit him was me and probably Angela.

He rolled his eyes and I suddenly remembered something.

I bit my lip,unsure if now was the right time although thinking if it,there never was gonna be a "right time" so I might as well get it over with now because I needed to know.

"Where'd ya get the," I paused to awkwardly clear my throat "where'd ya get the blade?"

He flinched and I felt kinda bad for asking but I held strong.

"Blake gave it to me," he mumbled quietly and I strained my ears to hear him

"Why have you been talking to Andrews?" I lectured him "I've told you to stay away from people like him,"

He frowned at me "he ain't that bad,"

I almost laughed at myself,I was a hood who had been to jail multiple times and here I was lecturing my brother on "bad people"

But still I shook my head
"whatever,you can't be seeing him no more," I warned

He groaned "why?"

"Are ya really asking why I won't let you hang out with a drug dealer,"

He pouted at me "it's not like I'm doing drugs,"

"You better not be!"

He rolled his eyes again "relax,I barley touch the stuff,"

I raised my eyebrows "barley?"

He stuttered "I meant not at all!"

I frowned at him one last time "good,"

Note
Yall im so sorry for the long ass wait. My mental health abs been shitty lately and I haven't had the motivation to do anything lol but I'm pushing through and I'll start to also pre write chapters just in case
Thankyou!