Platinum Heart

New Beginnings

•Sanaa•

October 21st

It was my first day at my new school and I can't lie, I'm nervous. It's senior year and what fun is it being the new girl your senior year? Everybody has been together all four years and maybe even longer and here goes this new girl with nobody, no memories, no friends, literally nothing.

"Sanaa! Hurry up or you'll be late for school!" My mom yells from downstairs.  Staring in the mirror I roll my eyes and finish applying my lipgloss.

I was dreading going to school. If somehow I could magically get sick and stay in bed all day I would. Not only was it Monday, but we had spent all weekend moving into our house.

Who knew we had this much shit? I wanted sleep, I craved sleep.

"Sanaa!"

"I'm comin!"  Dang just impatient. I grabbed my jean jacket and quickly put it on before grabbing my bag and my phone. 

I walked down the steps seeing my mom grab her keys off the kitchen table and her purse. She turns around looking at me up and down.

"Well don't you look cute today. What a way to make an impression."

"Thanks. You know... I wouldn't have to make an impression if you let me stay where I was at." I sigh.

"Now Kitty, we've had this discussion."

God I hate this nickname.

"I know but mom it's senior year.. .why couldn't I just stay with dad in Fayetteville."

"Because the way your fathers hours are set up there would be no time for him to properly take care of you. His hours just aren't equipped for raising a seventeen year old."

"No offense, but yours are? You both have demandin' jobs mom. I barley see you and I live with you."

"Sweetie, this is the best decision for you right now. Now let's go, you don't wanna be late."

Following my mom out the house and into her 2017 Hyundai Elantra, I sit my bag at my feet and buckle in.

With my head against the window, I watched the houses past by the window until we were out of our neighborhood.

The car was quiet except the sound of the Steve Harvey morning show playing on the radio.

I was nervous. But I'd never let it show. Back in Fayetteville I didn't have many friends I had people I associated with but I was never the type to have actual friends, but a lot of people liked being around me.

But now I have to walk on this school and find new associates? Yeah no, that's just ghetto.

Rolesville was fifteen minutes away from where I lived and each minute that dropped from the 'time left' on the GPS made my stomach swirl.

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The car came to a complete stop and I look out the passenger side window looking at the groups of students either standing around, siting on the flower beds, or piling into the building.

People of all sizes, shapes, colors poured from the busses and I felt a wave of nausea swirl inside of me.

"I can't do this." I say trying to breathe through the queasy feeling.

"Sanaa, you'll be just fine. You're bright ,you're beautiful, and people gravitate towards you. Just go inside and be Sanaa. There's no reason to be scared love."

"But mom-"

"You're going to be late.  You still need to stop by the office and pick up your schedule and I have to get to work. You're gonna be just fine. The quicker you get in the quicker you can get to your classes and get to work. Don't forget you need to maintain straight A's, you still need scholarships."