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chapter 30: park pains

Greyson

(last week)
I exit her house swiftly and quietly heading in the direction of my car.

The air outside makes contact with my boiling skin, cooling it down with ease. I take in a deep breath to slow my heart as I open my car door.
The leather seats engulfs me in a cold embrace.

I grip onto the steering wheel while thoughts of the last five minutes ran through my head.

I enjoyed the way her lips felt against mine but hated the situation. I loved how she felt in my hands, but I hate that I took something away from her.

sighing, I put the key in the ignition and begin to drive home.

••••••
(currently, 1 week later)

Violet

It's early, and I'm at the park. Against my will.

My mom and I are walking on the trail that goes through the entire park. Apparently this is going to be part of a new routine for us.

While walking, momma and I talked about everything. (Everything besides her and my teacher) We even talked about Greyson.

"He's a nice boy. Can cook, clean, got money and might I add, sexy," Momma said with a grin.

"Who are we talking about now?,"

" Greyson!"

I roll my eyes at the sound of that name, "ugh, do not bring that name up right now."

"why? what happened? y'all seemed to be having lots of fun while making dinner last weekend."

We did have fun, i thought. That was the first time in a long time that i just thought about nothing except for what was happening right then and there.

"he, uh. He kissed me," I admitted. I look at her face. At first i thought i was going to see disappointment, but of course there's a smirk.

"And how was that?"

how was it? It was wrong. It felt wrong. My skin felt like a huge match was thrown on me. My lips felt like a bunch of bees had stung me. My stomach felt as if it was sick. And my heart was pounding way too fast and hard.

At least with finn, i felt nothing.

I told her everything I thought of and when I did so, Mom's eyes grew wide and so did her smile.

"Vi, you like him."

The words stabbed through me sharply.

"I don't," I simply state.

My mother shrugs her shoulders in my response with the same smirk remaining on her face.

We spent the last minutes at the park in a comfortable silence that was interrupted by a ringing and a light ping sound.

My mom grabs her phone from her pocket to answer as she moves away from me slightly.

I also take out my phone to discover that the ping sound came from my phone. It was a text from Grey.

Should I read it? Should I keep him on delivered? Should i just not respond at all?

My brain was still deciding on an action whilst my fingers had already unlocked my phone and went to his messages.

GREYSON- you probably don't want to talk to me ever again and I completely understand. I just want to apologize and promise to leave you alone

i'm not sure what possessed me but the text made me not care about kiss as much. As if I cared more for our casual friendship than an accidental kiss.

ME- it's not like you took my first kiss or wtv. we are okay Greyson :)

GREYSON- wait what? i wasn't your first kiss?

ME- no.

i think we need to talk...

•••••••

Greyson

It's been an hour since Violet texted me saying that we needed to talk. And within that hour, I took and shower, got dressed and drove to her house. Her little green house that sat perfectly in the middle of her street.

I sat in my car, parked in her drive way as I texted her that I was outside. No more than five seconds, i notice the front door opening slowly.

My heart starts quickening. It's only been a week since the incident, but It felt like a lifetime without speaking to her at all.

What does she want to talk about? She's probably gonna yell at me. Which I do deserve.

Violet emerges from the door wearing a low waisted jogger and a cropped sweater. She closed the door behind her and wrapped her arms around her torso. Covering her midriff.

She reaches the car and pulls on the handle to enter. The door swings opening letting in the outside air and the girl.

She sits down. It's quiet.

"So, uh....Who kissed you first?," I break the silence that filled the car. She turns her head to look at me. A small smile forming as she shakes her head.

"Of course that'd be the first thing you'd say," She rolled her large brown eyes playfully. She surprisingly doesn't seem angry. She's loose, "it was Finn."

My stomach drops. I mean, I'm glad i didn't take her first kiss away from being selfish. But HIM. Finn, being her first kiss. It hurt a little.

"Was it good. At least," I force out the words with closed eyes to hide my discomfort.

Violet, on the other hand, shrugged her shoulders, basically saying that it was meh. For some reason that made me feel better.

"I'm still so sorry for kissing you without question. Even if I wasn't the first. It was totally uncalled for, I shouldn't have taken advantage of you. You are my friend and I understand if my actions have caused a tear in our friendship," I turn my body towards her and grab her small hands into mine as I apologize profusely.

There's silence as I stare at her round face. She is looking down at our joined hands on the glove box.

She doesn't forgive me. I know it. And I know that this is the end of our relationship. I just can't believe I fucked up so fast. or at all really.

I begin to retract my hands from hers until I feel soft lips on mine. Her lips on mine. Violets lips on Mine, again. Except, I didn't make the first move.

She moves her lips against mine. Slow and gentle. She is great for a beginner. She kisses me smooth and soft. just like butter. It feels like heaven against my lips.

I place my hands upon her cheeks, trying to slightly deepen our kiss.

Then she pulls away. Her chest heaves up and down in the slightest way indicating that she is out of breath.

She looks shocked. confused almost. As if she doesn't understand what she just did and why. But i ask anyway.

"What was that for?," I question. My eyebrows raised in shock. I actually can't believe it.

"I know you haven't been getting any action for about a month. I just thought I'd do you a favor." She gets back into her seat, wiping her lips. She turns her head towards the window. As if regretting her decision.

"Ha. Says the little one who NEVER had any action." I chuckle as I too wipe my lips. Violet playfully hits me in response," Anyways.. Wanna go grab a bite?"

"Yeah. sure" She says

"In N out?" I nudged her with my elbow before starting the engine of my car.

"Nah, we got burgers last time we hungout,"

"Torchy's?,"

"ooohh yessplease,"