Drugs&Money

13-spur of the moment

Isabelle's POV

*a week and a half later*

Nora had just been released from hospital and we were both given time off of work for as long as we needed. The boys insisted that we stayed at their house and in all honesty I wouldn't have wanted it any other way.

I trusted the boys more than anybody to keep us safe. To keep Nora safe.

Me and Christian never had a chance to speak about the night in the hospital and I didn't know if we ever would.

I had spent all my time focused on Nora and her getting better that I didn't even think to speak to him about it.

Still, I decided that I would do it today. He deserved to know how I felt and he had been helping us out so much that it just made my feelings grow stronger.

He was currently in his room whilst I was sitting with mitchel and Jordan. We were watching a tv program which I had no intention remembering the name of and I felt my heart rate growing faster and faster by the minute.

Nora was sleeping in the spare bedroom with Zoe whilst Clinton, pat and Jesse were out.

I turned my whole body towards mitchel and Jordan and I sat up until they noticed.

"You okay there, kiddo?" Mitchel asked with a slight laugh.

"Me and Christian almost kissed in the hospital the other week and we haven't spoken about it since. I think i'm falling for him but I don't know what to do. Help me?" I blurted out.

I needed advice.

And I needed it now

I had expected them to jump up and down but they didn't. They just crossed their arms and smirked.

"What?" I questioned.

"You think this is news to us babe?" Jordan answered.

They knew?

He told them?

"Nice. Well that's great. I'm just going to go and kill myself then." And they laughed before I got up.

I started to walk away but as I got to the bottom of the stairs I turned around to face them again.

"Oh and, great advice by the way." I said sarcastically.

I continued up the stairs and when I reached his room, I knocked gently three times before I heard him welcome me in.

I stepped in and smiled at the sight of him. He was laying comfortably with his phone in his hand and his eyes lifted to me when I closed the door.

"Hey." Was all I said.

"Hey gorgeous. Come sit down." He smiled and patted the seat beside him.

He definitely already knew what this was about.

I did as he asked and I went to sit beside him on the bed. He placed his phone down and sat up so that all his attention was now on me.

"I just wanted to say that-" I started but he cut me off.

"It's okay isabelle. I know what you're going to say and I think we can agree that it was just a spur of the moment. Right?" He said and my heart suddenly felt heavy.

It didn't mean anything to him?

My eyes trailed to the ground. I didn't want to look into his eyes right now in case it showed him how much I cared because I did.

I cared so much it hurt.

"Yeah, right." I said.

That was all I could say. There was so much more that I wanted to say but I couldn't because now i knew he didn't feel the same.

I nodded and without looking at him I stood up and walked out of his room. When I closed the door behind me I leaned back and slowly slid down it.

All the happiness I had encountered from the memory of our interaction at the hospital that night...

Gone.

Completely thrown away.

I buried my head into my hands and lifted my legs to my chest in an attempt to comfort myself.

It became clear that whatever I thought we were, we weren't.

So what the hell am I sulking about?

This is my fault.

If I didn't jump to conclusions all the goddamn time I wouldn't be in this situation anyway.

I wiped away the tears that had managed to escape my eyes and stood up straight. I didn't have the right to be mad and grudges were not going to be held.

Yes, my feelings were hurt and that wouldn't just disappear with the click of my fingers but I wasn't going to show that.

Especially not to him.