Teenage years are supposedly supposed to be " The best years of your life". They are the years where you start to have liberties you did not enjoy before, you are on th brink of responsibilities and pretense freedom.
However my teenage years were a joke. High school was long and annoying. Boys were well just that. Boys a word classified as it is. They are immature, unreliable, horny, and more brawn than brain. But that is the world of boy, so as you can probably tell my dating experiences were not great. To the male kind I was a chick with a nice ass.I was looked at like a blow up sex doll more than a normal human being.
Home life wasn't great either. My mom gained more weight and her mean side spiked as fast as her pounds. Silly enough I still tried to please the unpleasable, did that till 16 when I finally learned that you can't make yourself important to someone else and there is no point in forcing it to happen. You can't force people to stay cause they won't if they don't want to. That is life though.
My mental space hasn't changed much since high school. I don't think I will ever be able to stop asking what is wrong with me, why I was never enough, what I could have changed to make people want to love me. I still have yet to find the answer of those questions. However I hope to know the answers to my impending questions soon.
Teenage years are very much so a foul ball though. You sit there and hope it will be a home run and then out of no where you end up getting the disappointment that follows the strict and decisive foul ball.
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