want you back. [𝚍𝚓𝚜]

t͓̽h͓̽r͓̽e͓̽e͓̽. d͓̽o͓̽ y͓̽o͓̽u͓̽ m͓̽i͓̽s͓̽s͓̽ h͓̽i͓̽m͓̽?

"...and i'm afraid to say ; i still do, love you, hate you. i still do, hate to love you. i still do, want you to want me like i'm wanting you"
i still do - why don't we
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✯ january 24, 2020 ✯

"so when were you gonna tell us you saw eleanor?" zach questioned daniel the second the blue eyed boy walked through the doors of the studio

"how'd you even find out?"

"christian told us" jack answered. he sat with his arms crossed and a slight glare on his face, "were you ever gonna bring it up?"

"i didn't think it mattered" daniel shrugged, taking a seat next to jonah

"of course it matters, daniel" zach sighed, "she was our friend too"

"yeah?" daniel mocked, "then why'd you all stop talking to her?"

"why'd you cheat on her?" jack glared

"alright!" jonah interrupted the three of them, "daniel shouldn't of cheated on her and we shouldn't of shut her out. we're all at fault"

the three boys held an intense stare for a moment before zach let out a sigh, "we shouldn't of shut her out, i shouldn't of shut her out. she was my bestfriend." he frowned and shook his head at himself, "or was, i guess"

"why don't you just reach out to her?" corbyn asked

"you think she'll respond?"

"christian reached out to her" daniel informed them, "he said she was pretty upset, basically blew him off"

"this sucks" jack sighed, "we're terrible friends. a year later and were just now trying to get ahold of her"

"christina talks to her all the time" corbyn admitted, "she says she's changed, that she's not the same happy, care-free girl she used to be"

"i guess that's what happens when you get cheated on and then your bestfriends stop talking to you" zach frowned

"i'm thinking of reaching out to her" daniel told them, "see if she'll meet up with me. i know i don't deserve it, but i just need to tell her how sorry i am.. how much i love her"

"if she blew christian off do you really think she'll respond to you?"

"i need to try"

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"isaac told me that christian reached out to you"

eleanor looked up from her phone as natalia walked into her room, the girl wasted no time in taking her shoes off and plopping down on her bed, eliciting an eye roll from her

"wow, it be your own brother" she joked. she had the habit of using humor as a way of getting out of talking about her feelings, it worked on a lot of people- natalia was not one of those people.

"talk to me, len"

eleanor sighed and tossed her phone onto her desk, giving natalia her full attention, "it's just like, why a year later, you know? i waited for months to hear from him, from zach, jack, any of them. so why a year later?"

"maybe they didn't know what to say to you"

"a simple 'how are you' wouldve went a long way" she frowned, "i was hurting, so badly, and the people i considered my best friends were nowhere to be seen"

natalia frowned at her eleanors words. she hated daniel for what he put her bestfriend through, but mostly, she hated the fact that none of their mutual friends reached out to her. it was like they had all taken daniels side, and it infuriated her.

"i could kill them" she suggested, partially joking

eleanor let out a small laugh, "you'd go to jail, nattie"

natalia gasped dramatically and placed a hand over her heart, "i could totally get away with murder"

"yeah, totally" eleanor snorted.

the two girls shared a laugh, the mood lightening before natalia gave her a look, "do you miss him?"

eleanor sighed and sent her a sad smile, "every damn day"

she frowned, "do you still love him?"

"with all of my heart"