Take The Risk | Jaden Hossler Story

Trail of thoughts.

Self harm/Suicide/Sexual assault warning

Bailey POV

Once Jaden left the room, I finished up in the bathroom and then went to sit on my bed. My head was spinning with so many unwanted thoughts. I could feel the world closing up on me. I couldn't help but think about what Ryland was gonna do next if I didn't get away.

The situation with my uncle was very different and I couldn't get away from him. His grip was to strong.

Tears started streaming down my face, I didn't want to cry. I was stronger then this but I felt like I had been ripped apart. I hated getting flashbacks of the night with my uncle.

I leaned over on my bed, to reach for my side table draw and pulled out a black box. My hands were trembling. I lifted the lid and saw my 2 blades that I have kept for quite some time. I took one out and put the box aside. I was crying, shaking and confused but I was so tempted to use the blade.

Before I knew it, I was tracing lines across my arm. It made me more emotional. I watched the blood seep through the torn skin while occasionally wiping the tears off my face. I traced four lines then dropped the blade to the ground.

I fell back onto the pillow and within 30 minutes, I was past out.

Jaden POV
9:40pm

The party was raging and people were very drunk. I had had about 2 beers for the night and the rest of the night, I was drinking water. After the incident with Bailey. I stopped drinking so I could be focused if anything happened.

I was still very furious with Ryland. I wasn't done with him as yet but because he was so drunk, I didn't bother. He wouldn't remember it anyway.

During the night, I few people had come up to me to ask how Bailey was especially her friends. I texted Bailey to see if she was okay but she didn't answer.

I decided to go upstairs and see if she was alright. I walked up the stairs and opened her door to find her sleeping. I then glanced down and noticed her arm was red. I walked in to get a closer look and noticed she had cuts on her arm. I didn't wanna believe it at first but my baby was broken. Ryland broke her.

I quickly ran out her room to find the first aid kit to clean her up. To be honest, I had to text Leah because I had no clue where it was. Leah wanted to know if everything was okay and I lied and said someone at the party got injured.

I went and fetched the first aid kit and cleaned Bailey's arm, whilst I was doing it, she woke up.

Bailey: No...what are you doing?

Jaden: I'm cleaning your arm.

Bailey: Stop!

Jaden: Is it sore?

Bailey: Leave me.

She pulls her arm away from me.

Bailey: Just leave me, I want to die. I don't want to be here.

Jaden: Bailey stop. You are beautiful and precious and shouldn't be wishing for this. Baby, please talk to me. Let me help you

Bailey: I'm exhausted Jaden. These thoughts keep coming back to my mind. I keep having panic attacks because of my stupid uncle. He took away my innocence. I'm tired of feeling this away. I'm tired of this constant pain. Let me go.

Jaden: Bailey, I'm here for you. I'm here to help you. I'm here to make you a stronger person. You just have to talk to me. If you want to go to therapy. Tell me. I will take you. I will do anything to bring back your happiness.

Bailey: This is just a constant battle I'm fighting every day.

Jaden: Listen baby, take this tablet. It's a sleeping tablet. Get your rest. We will talk about this tomorrow. You have been through a lot tonight and need to process it. Where did you put the blades?

Bailey: Don't touch them.

Jaden: Bailey you have to. I'm trying to help you.

Bailey: I don't want to be helped. Leave my things alone.

She grabs the box out of hand. Little did she know, I had slipped the other blade on the floor, under her bed.

I could see in her eyes, she was hurt and in pain. She didn't deserve any of this.

Jaden: Baby, I'm not here to fight with you. Please just take this tablet and we will talk tomorrow okay? I will lie next to you until you fall asleep.

Bailey: You promise?

Jaden: With everything I have.

She places the box on her bed side table and moves over so I can lie next to her. I felt so hopeless. I was hurt seeing her in so much pain.

- - - -
Once she had fallen asleep, I moved out from next to her and took the box, picked up the blade under her bed and flushed them down the toilet. I took the box and threw it in the bin. I cleaned up the first aid kit and went to put it back.

I went back downstairs and chilled with Anthony and Griffin.

Anthony: How's Bailey?

Jaden: She is in so much pain. Like emotionally.

Griffin: Where is she?

Jaden: In her room, sleeping. I gave her a sleeping tablet. She had so much going on in her mind, she was never gonna sleep properly tonight.

Anthony: You gonna tell Leah what happened?

Jaden: I don't know. It's not my place bro but Bailey needs help. She is emotionally out of it.

Anthony: Talk to Bailey first.

Jaden: I will

Charli, Addison, Dixie and Avani walk towards us.

Charli: Hey Jaden, how is Bailey?

Jaden: She will be okay. Did she text you guys?

Addison: No...

Jaden: Oh, maybe she will tomorrow. She is sleeping right now.

Dixie: Are you okay?

Jaden: Yeah I'm fine.

Avani: Okay, please tell Bailey to call us. We would love to talk to her.

Jaden: I will. Thanks guys.

Charli: Yeah of course.

The girls walk away.

Jaden: This is so stressful.

Griffin: Man, you got this. Just be there for Bailey.

Jaden: Of course. Without a doubt.

- - -
2:07am

Everyone was slowly starting to leave. I had been up to Bailey room to check on her and she was still sleeping. I wrote a note to put on her table for when she wakes up.

I love you baby girl. You are worth it.

Once everyone had left, I went up to my room, to shower and head straight to bed.