The Mistake

Chapter X -Cravings-

"I need you to leave immediately or else I'll involve the police" I threatened Jake throwing his backpack to him. Sofia was in the kitchen so he can't do anything to me. He eyed his backpack and looked at me, his fists forming on his sides and his eyes glistened with anger. Sofia walked in eying him up and down.

"Well? Are you just gonna stand there? We don't have all day, you heard her" Sofia crossed her arms on her chest and stood beside me waiting for Jake to move.

He grabbed his backpack, when he looked up he had this psychopathic smile and evil look in his eyes. "One of these days I'll be back before you could even say goodbye"

"Quit jabbering and get a move on" Sofia pushed him out and closed the door. She looked at me with relief. "I know that was hard for you but you did the right thing. Jake helped for the recovery of your mom and that's it. An agreement is an agreement"

And he was really back. I recalled my past memories of Jake and Sofia. I blamed myself and then I blame him but then again it wasn't me who was the abuser but the abused. What could have happened if Sofia was not around? Or if she wasn't one of my closest friends or rather a best friend because she knows all my achievements and failures except about this baby.

Unconsciously, I placed my palm on my belly, it grew like an inch or two but still unnoticeable. My mood swings have been off the bat and I keep making up excuses for Will on why I was acting a bit weird. The other day he saw me eat a can of sardines mixed with mayonnaise. As he descried it, I devoured it like it was the best meal I had ever tasted in my life. I offered him some but the smell was way worse than a baby's poo he quoted.

Lately, I've been munching a lot of chocolate chip cookies and it was getting way weirder, sooner or later I'm gonna grow like a balloon. I have had a check up on Dr. Eleanor and says that the baby is healthy and growing. She advised me to take it easy on the sweets because the baby also needs nutrition. But I can't help it, even walking outside I could tell whose house was baking them just by smelling. Another thing I noticed from my pregnancy is my senses are a bit enhanced. I could smell specifically and know what kind of aroma I'm smelling, also as I look into the mirror my face has been glowing and I look fuller. Will even asked me if I had purchased brand new face masks or soap which makes my skin glow. Wow, pregnancy is full of surprises.

I've decided that I would tell Will tonight. That could make his mind at peace with all the things that I have been weirdly doing lately. I called my mother to tell my plan. After 2 rings she answered

"Hey sweetness, how have you been?" her voice sounded so cheerful.

"Hi mom, been great how about you?"

"Never better, my herbs are growing nicely and the neighbors invited me for dinner tonight. Any suggestions on what I should bring?"

"Wine? Some dessert?" I cracked my brain for ideas.

"I'll figure it out dear, how's the baby? Have you told Will yet?

"I plan to, tonight. I've been craving a lot of chocolate chips, how did you deal with it when you were pregnant with me?"

She was silent for a moment, maybe forming her answer "Well, I used to crave a lot of cherries and pineapples. It's a weird combo I know but I couldn't help it. I could eat a whole container by myself and not feel guilty" she chuckled "Good times"

"Is that the reason why the red tint in my cheeks are always noticeable even without make up?" I smiled excitedly.

"Could be but you never know. Every craving that a mother has has a different effect on the child. If you say that you can't stop eating chocolate chips, maybe the baby would have dark colored skin or he could a sweet type of person. It really depends"

"I don't mind his physical appearance but I might worry a little because the baby won't have an ounce of Will's DNA and this would look a lot like Jake when he or she grows"

"If it's a he then it would be a lot like Jake but if a she, more a lot like you and I think that's better than a he. Do you plan telling him the whole truth or just that you're pregnant as of the moment?"

"What do you suggest?" I haven't really formed my piece on what to say I mean I have a picture of the ultrasound. That's pretty obvious isn't it?

"As your mother, I would suggest you tell Will everything from the beginning up to the latest but I know you're hard headed and afraid to do so. I'll just answer it's up to you" her voice pitched higher on the last word.

I sighed "I'll figure this out and thanks for always looking out for me mom. I don't show it much but I am truly grateful you're always there no matter what, I'm sorry I made such rash and bad decisions"

"Oh sweetie, I'll always be there. Always. Don't blame yourself, you were tricked and didn't know what happened. Let's just focus on the present rather than dwelling on the past. No matter how you wish you could change it, it has already happened and we have no choice but to move on and think for possible solutions"

I smiled gratefully even though she can't see it, "Thanks mom, you take care and have fun later"