Give Me Time (M.C.)

Chapter 29 Idols

-Andrea's POV-

"I'm Alex. Alex Gaskarth."

As soon as I hear those words, I nearly screamed. "Oh, from All Time Low?" I say trying to keep my cool. He smiles and nods, "Ok so tell me, uhh, wait. Nickname, I'm giving you one." He says, staring up and down at my body. I can feel myself blushing so I cover my face, "Hm, I dunno, can I get a real name?" He asks, looking defeated. "Andrea..." I say, smiling. "Okay, so tell me Andrea. Where you headed?" He asks me, smiling even more. I look around and turn my face back to the ground, "Bathroom, I'm here with my fiancé and I left to use the bathroom and got lost.. I was on my way back." I explain and Alex snickers, "Okay, you're pretty far from the restrooms, I'm going to them too so I'll show you." He says, grabbing my wrist and pulling me the opposite direction I was originally headed.

We get to a little cut off and he points to one of the doors, "That's the ladies.." He tells me and goes into the door next to it. I quickly walk in and start jumping up and down, "Oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh!" I say to myself. Then I remember why I came, "What'll Michael think? He'll hate me for this? I can't do that to him!" I say and rush into on of the stalls. I take off my shirt and grab my lighter and a cigarette, lighting it, and start humming the tune of 'Dear Maria, Count Me In'. I let it touch my shoulder slowly, feeling the burn. I've been longing for this, burning seems less painful. I swirl it around in circles until it burn out, then I drop it in the toilet and flush. I put my shirt back on and fix my make up.

As soon as I open the door, I see Calum and Alex chatting, then they turn to me. Calum walk up to me and grabs my bag, "Nobody as beautiful as you should burn themselves. Michael knows, he took it really hard..." He says, taking out the box and lighter. I look at Alex, he just seemed shocked, I send weak smile and his features soften, "It gets better babe, I promise." He says and pulls out his phone. Calum pulls me into him, hugging me tightly, "Do this for me, imagine every time you burn or cut or starve, think about if Michael was doing that and you had know idea. You'd feel like shit right? Well, that's how Michael feels. You're everything in the world to him, he's so scared of losing you, we all hate to see him this way. He thinks it's his fault... Please, stop, for him." Calum says and pulls away. Out of the corner of my eye I see Alex leaving, "Wait!" I run after him. He spins around and looks confused, "Lemme see your phone." I demand, holding my hand out. He hands me his android and I go to the contact list and put my number in, then hand it back to him, "Lost Girl? Really?" He asks me, reading the name I put for myself. We both laugh and I hug him, "Thanks for keeping me alive." I say into his ear, only making him hug me tighter. We both pull away and he says one last thing, "Text me if you ever feel you can't tell anyone." before I can reply, he starts walking away.

I run back to Calum and get my purse back, "I'm sorry, I just need to talk to Michael.." I say and speak of the devil, Michael, Luke, and Ashton come out of the bathroom, Michael has obviously been crying. He looks up at me, not saying anything, he just shakes his head and walks with the other boys back to their room.

I obviously can't go back in there, I turn around and head for the exit. I fucked up too badly this time.
-20 agonizing minutes later-
I open the door to my apartment and shut the door behind me, also using a chair to keep it closed. I run around the house, knocking stuff over and cursing. I grab all of Michael's clothes and put them into a trash bag and throw it into the hall. I grab my laptop and start a video, "Michael, if you're watching this, I'm probably dead.. I'm sorry, I can't take this anymore. I fucked up, you obviously hate me. I don't have a will or anything but, just keep all of my stuff please. I don't need a burial or a cremation or anything like that.. just know I'll be with you even if you can't see me and I love you..." I say to the laptop and run to find my pills and my razor. I'm giving the fans what they want, but I have to remember, keep it classy. We don't need blood everywhere, but the cutting takes the idea off of my slow eternal sleep. I run into the bathroom to find them, "I swear Clifford, if you threw them away.." I mumble under my breath.

I walk back into the trashed living room, then I hear a faint, "What the fuck?", Calum. I start hurrying, then I hear the door unlocking. After they find out they can't get in, because of the chair, they start banging on the door. I run to the last place I could have hid them, my dresser. I open the top drawer and sure enough, they're in there. I grab the pill bottle and try opening them, of course they're stuck.

-Michael's POV-

"What the fuck?" Calum asks, seeing the trash bag full of my clothes on the bottom of the stairs, "Did I just get kicked out?" I ask the other guys, they just shrug and keep going up the stairs.

I unlock the door, but when I turn the knob, it won't open. I try multiple times to open, crying yet again. I start banging on the door, along with Ashton and Luke. We hear a loud slam in her apartment, which only worries us more. "Back up, I'm gonna kick it down." Ashton says, pushing us back slightly. He successfully kicks the door down after one kick. Her living room is absolutely awful, broken glass from the lamp, the couch is turned over, coffee table as well. I run to her door, it's not locked. I swing the door open and see Andrea on the floor, sobbing, trying to open a pill bottle. I grab the pills from her and throw them across the room, then pull her into a tight hug. She stays tense, and doesn't hug back, but she doesn't protest either. Luke, Calum, and Ash come in less than a second later and join me by also finding a way to comfort her.

After about 20 minutes of sitting like that, Andrea fell asleep on my chest. I carefully pick her up and put her onto the bed, "Don't you ever scare me like that ever again..." I whisper into her ear, and kiss her cheek. Luke smiles and gets the other guys out of the room, along with himself. I strip down into my boxers and climb into the bed next to her, putting my arms around her waist and pulling her into my chest.

"I'm sorry I wasn't here for you.."

"It's not your fault, Mikey.."