Flash forward. (Lexa/You)

Chapter Five//Costia.

I was soon disappointed when I woke up to a bunch of people surrounding me. I groaned. The first one to notice was Clarke, she had tear stained cheeks and still had blood all over her. 

"Y/N I am so sor-" I cut her off before she could go on her tantage about how sorry she was.

"It's fine Clarke." I notice there were tubes inside me. I ripped them all off sitting up most of my wounds had healed including the smoothed over spot on my stomach that should've been a gapping bullet hole. "That's much better." I looked around the room receiving all types of glares. 

I looked around the room to meet a smiling Raven who jumped my bones as soon as she saw I was ok. "Don't ever do something like that every again you moron." she hugged me tightly. It felt nice but dying would've been nicer than explaining my mental state last night. I was glad Raven didn't bring it up.

I hopped off the hospital bed to see a stoic Lexa in front of me. Uh-Oh she was about to full commander my ass. "Thanks for saving me." she nodded and walked away. What the hell I took a bullet for her and all those things Finn said to her last night and all she gave me was a half-assed thank you? What. The. Fuck. 

I shrugged it off being greeted by a thankful Octavia and Lincoln. Nyko was there as well, Nyko had been the nicest grounder, beside Lexa but that was only when we were alone she was nice. 

I don't know how to feel about Lexa's whiplash it was annoying me but I was eventually pulled out of my thoughts by Abbey. Abbey and I had grown close only because I spent most of my time  around Raven who spent most her time Abbey. In the first week I met Raven she told about her mother and I told her about mine. Abbey was like the mother we always wanted.

"How are you feeling." she inspected me placing her hands on my shoulders before pulling me into a hug. 

"I feel like dying would be better than having to explain what happened last night. You guys are going to have to talk Lexa down or she'll kill Finn." I let off. 

"We were hoping you'd talk to her." Raven said making a face at me. 

Great

After getting checked out by Abbey one last time I made way to where Lexa was staying. I entered without making it known. I know you're probably thinking didn't you learn from the last time? No. 

"What?" she called out. 

"You can't kill Finn."

"He made a choice Y/N" 

"I shot his girlfriend." 

"He made a threat towards the commander." 

I moved over to her I kept walking towards her like always and she ended up against the wall again. "We all know that's not what this is about."

"Like hell it isn't" she barked back at me. 

"What was the crying about last night?" I asked. We were so close I could feel her breathing against me. She remained silent. "Let me ask you a question." I paused taking her silence as a chance to continue. "Would you have cried if it was one of your people." I licked my lips.

No reponse. 

"Or is it because deep down you know you feel something for me?" I stared into her eyes. I could tell I was intimidating her. "Because deep down Lexa, we all know what feelings your capable of. You can hide them, you can be nice to me in private and treat me as anyone else in public. But you cannot deny those feelings can you?" I paused I watched her bit the bottom of her lip, she was holding back. And god was it hot. "You can't control yourself around me. That's why you brought me back. You brought me back because if we stayed in Polis we would've-"