Flash forward. (Lexa/You)

Chapter Nine//Stress

////////////smut smut smut, it sucks but there is smut this chapter. 

It's been two weeks since I met my real mother, I am glad she is here. I just haven't gotten my hopes she'll stay or that she isn't putting up this act. I'm still waiting for the part where she leaves because I am to much to handle. I always have my guard up because if I let her in, it'll cost me greatly.

On the other hand Raven literally drools over her, I wouldn't say my mother is hot because that's weird. SO I can't really speak on the matter. Lexa and Clarke walk around hand in hand most of the time I won't lie and say it doesn't hurt because it does. I just tend to ignore it or spend most of my time reading or with Peyton. It's really hard to avoid Lexa when Peyton is constantly asking to be around her, which I let her just because she hurt me doesn't mean she doesn't get to see her.

Peyton tends to spend more time with her than me, I can't really blame her. If you had to choose between hanging out with someone who is awkward, always reading, and where you have to worry whether a memory is going to burst up and need to take care of her. Or someone who is always happy and caring and never had major issues like that, everyone would choose the latter. 

I would leave my room to go talk to Raven, Octavia, or Selene most of the time. If I wasn't talking with either of them my head was for sure in a book reading. Selene said I got that from her sisters who loved reading to her. 

Peyton and Emma were still together and rather than ask me for advice she'd ask Lexa. We had gotten into an argument earlier and she said "If I needed relationship advice I'll just ask Lexa at least she's successfully dating a girl." 

I won't lie that stung like a bitch, but hey not like I have feelings. Every since that outburst I haven't really talk to her, not because she hurt my feelings because she said "I don't want to talk to you anymore, Lexa is actually able to help." So I left her alone. 

As a matter of fact I left camp for a while to go be by myself for awhile, I brought one book with me. I spent a month in the woods just reading that book over and over again. I came back with a clear mind, Selene was worried sick when I got back. 

"You should've told me where you were going?" she said grabbing my arm. 

"I'm fine I just needed to clear my head." I turned around giving her a reassuring smile and went to get a shower. 

Peyton was busy enjoying her time with Lexa and Clarke, who had split because Clarke was seeing Raven. They were still friends. Lexa would nod at me or say hi but I always just ignored her. I tried with her and she wanted a distraction. I very least I could was at least sleep with her which I planned on doing sooner rather than later. 

If I just slept with her maybe those feelings would go away, that brings us up to speed.

I had been called down to talk with Clarke, Selene, Abbey, Raven and Lexa. They had called down while I was in the middle of a shower saying it was urgent I made my way down dressing myself on the way there. I walked in shirtless I mean I wasn't naked I had a bra on. I walked in pulling my pants over my underwear causing them all to look at me.

"Damn. You're so hot." Raven said messing with me. 

"Raven look at Clarke she's your girlfriend." I said laughing back at her, I made my way over to the table pulling my shirt on. "Why am I down here?" I asked. 

"Oh Lexa wanted you to go to her tent outside the camp." Clarke said looking up from what she was doing. 

"Ugh." I groaned and made my way there. I had a plan, I just needed to challenge her authority that drove her crazy. "What do you want Lexa?" I asked stepping inside.